to think that all of you have shown me new ways new ideas and all that i lost and were to become. and now all of you falter and i am in this new direction new place and time. i can tell you all i know but it take open ears and the will to absolute didication of change. not like i know but i've learned a few things here and there ( Read more... )

i have walked away from everyone. do it to them before they can do it to you, eh? well life's short and full of nuclear waste. toxic and infiltrating to your every pore. ya know, i'm not bitching, cause i dont do that any more, but i really thought this was all gonna be easier. i really did. but maybe thats my problem.

so i had a emotional breakdown in the bank yesterday. i totally started crying. i'm sure the lady thought i was mental. i was just trying to get an answer on a very simple question that anyone working in a bank should be able to understand. it was nuts. i got passed off to 2 people and then after sitting with the last banker for a straight 20 ( Read more... )

i just fucked myself over royally. actually i'd been doing it for awhile. i'd been using my direct deposit to basically live off my next paycheck for abt a year now. it's finally come to bite me on the ass. there was a big mix up with my taxes and they ended up getting cashed before anyone told me they would. its horrible. o the carnage! well too ( Read more... )

this place is fucked. now, i know i'm supposed to be thinking positively but this place argues with the best of our inner workings. we are made to feel cheap and less than capable. i want to walk away ( Read more... )

i want you to know i'm fucking sorry about whats happening to you. it kills me with unfairness. i dont even know what to say and i know i'll never understand ( Read more... )

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man u really fucked up that one. well, maybe it was doomed from the beginning. i can still see it tho. i can still see all the good parts ( Read more... )

too much time was wasted. what more could this life bring if not some sort of answer. all i need is to get lost in it. "once more with feeling..." I could walk against the grain till the cows come home. it's not hard for me, LET ME TELL YOU. no really its not all that bad. you meet some true buddies this way, fer sure. lets talk about love. lets ( Read more... )

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"i feel like not being here all the time,"..."i've felt it since i was six or seven. i remember the first time it hit me...but i never do anything about it because it's my responsibility not to. if i dont outgrow it in this lifetime, i'm not ever gonna outgrow iti could wait and wait and wait but at some point i'm gonna haffta learn that all this ( Read more... )