Kneeling

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Last night, when I got to Lochai's house, he told me to kneel. I did so, and I noticed that how I kneel for him has changed. For as far back as I can remember, anytime I have knelt, I have had my knees together. Occasionally I have opened them as an afterthought, but last night, there was no thought. I knelt and my knees were separated. My

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[cubanchic]

~smile~ it is nice to be in a relationship were there is thrust, were you feel safe.

Jim has seen the ugly parts of me, in fact he is the only person that knows my whole (every last ugly truama) story. But instead of seeing me as a damaged and broken person, he sees me as strong, resislent and beautiful. I trust him completely and thus I am allowed to just be me, the core person.

In regards to the way you change....it's part of the growing process, I found that in the beginning of our relationship, my submission to Amo was actually more selfish(more to do with the feeling I got when I submitted) now it has more to do with Amo and actually really submitting to his wishes, not mines. OF course Jim has grown as well and become more comfortable in his Authority over me.

Janice, nicely written account of your growing relationship ;-)

[subinside]

Thank you! Everything is still so new. It's hard to believe that I am getting so comfortable this fast. *smile*

[masterjim]

It's nice to see a relationship doing so well ... enjoy!

[subinside]

I am enjoying every minute! Thanks for your good wishes.

[the_hedonist]

This made me smile. I'm so happy for you.

[subinside]

Thanks.... it made me smile, too. ;)

[mgs_naughtycat]

awesome honey. I love self revalations like that.

[subinside]

Me, too! Sometimes I think that I over-analyze things wayyyy too much, though. :)

[mgs_naughtycat]

yeah but over analization doesn't smack you in the head :P

[slavekittyy]

When both body and mind start to converge on the one you have trusted yourself to, the feelings are tremendous and so damn exciting. Thank you for sharing this because what you are feeling is a replica of what I feel for My Master. I say again - it is good to be us!

[subinside]

Again, I agree.

On a different note, please update when you get a chance regarding the situation with cassie. I'm sure I am not the only one who is very concerned. Thank you!