whatthefuckever.

it's not that i wanted to give him dirty looks all night, but in the several times our eyes locked in on each other's i couldn't bring myself to smile, nor could i say anything. what could i say? everything i have to say to him i couldnt say in front of everyone like that...especially not his girlfriend, how awkward would that be? you know how ( Read more... )

scuba steve....damn you!

so...i had work at 6 pm. the plan was the chill with amy n pisha before work and then when i got home at 2:15ish id wake them up and we'd watch a movie. we should be going to bed right now. however, i just got bak from work about 20 minutes ago. oh yea, and i have a bloody nose. and for those of u who don't know, ive never had a bloody nose before ( Read more... )

i want to say i'm over it, i really do. i want to say he meant nothing to me, as i did to him. but do you ever catch yourself in those goofy daydreams when you're bored, you're phone rings and it's them. lame stuff like that. i keep drifting away and for some reason it keeps going back to him. it's not even who i thought it would be. how is it ( Read more... )

i feel an emptiness inside
a part of me already died
when i pretend to go on
like everything's okay.

i keep meaning to update but i never know what to say. nothing in my life has happened that is interesting enough to write about. its just the same old daily routine. same old me. same old thoughts. i need a change. i know whenever i write in this it's always the same. something really bad happened with some guy and im in a bad mood. but i really ( Read more... )

somehow i always seem to get hurt. i actually wasn't hurt this time because i wasn't attached to this one. but i was definetly the one who got screwed over again. if you tell someone to call you the next day to make plans, you could at least have the courtesy to pick up and tell her you have a new girlfriend ( Read more... )

i love how im finally starting my new job tomorrow and i have what seems like the flu.

damn

thank god it's all over.

now...school.

damn.