deactivating soon

[subswitch]

I had one of my best sleeps in years last night because for the first time in years I was pretty much sober. I don't mean to indicate that I'm drunk every day or have been for years but last night was the first night in recent memory that i neither had a beer nor wanted to have a beer nor planned to have a beer in the future.That of course doesn't

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[manifestress]

Yes - I'd seen the new name, since I had graciously given the code. Good to know all the details.

[subswitch]

and for your generosity i humbly thank You as i contemplate Your icon and mentally obey

[subswitch]

thank you
stay with me
james

[subswitch]

that makes you first friend, appropriately

[f_l_i_r_t]

curious really...

good for you, but as I have found out, tucking away one part of us does not make it go away. why do you need to give up who you are now to become something better? can we not evolve, rather then change, grow older, wiser and more true to ourselves?

good luck in your new journey... one wonders if old friends should be brought to your 'new look at life'

[subswitch]

i am merly deactivating subswitch not cancelling
the past doesn't go away but it is flexible except for the scars that prove we had a past and the responsibilities that we pick up along the way. and the answer to your questins are yes, yes, yes and yes and yes and that's what I'm tryng to do.
not everybody on my friends list is a friend.
those who choose to stay with me probably are.

[subswitch]

pardon me for my stupid, flippant and shortsighted reply to your response. i was in the midst of getting some very disappointing news that roclked my whole sense of serenity and purpose when i fired of my response

[f_l_i_r_t]

I would like to, but would not presume to be assume you consider me as such... friend, so if it is ok with you then I will continue on your new journey with you.

But, if you have decided certain people are best left behind then that is ok as well I will honour and respect that, the choice is all yours, all you need do is ask me...

Change is cathardic, healing, sounds very brave, I am proud of you and I know you can do anything you desire if you truely want it. Good luck. *hugs*

[prncessothedawn]

I understand completely, and yet I don't understand it at all if that makes sense. Sometimes to succeed at one change, one basically cleans house, granted. And reading what you wrote here and in comment to me actually was like a light opening in the sky bringing some clarity to my smoking cessation and made me look at it from a different angle as well

[subswitch]

thanks for the analysis, nicotine lack inspired or not, the points are valid and very much worth confronting. some of my reasoning, i included in my response to my friend flirt so maybe if you read that it might answer a question or two. also remember, i'm sorta crazy and half the time i don't know what the hell i'm doing and i go with intuition and feeling.
i suppose there are a lot of moves i could make if i wasn't so wrapped up in the overenthusiasm of this perspective change. i don't know what the hel i'm doing, i was hoping you or one of my other friends did although i think the concept of rebirth as a mending block is a great insight.
i can't be "through" with subswitch because that's part of my nature it's like being through with being brown eyed or right handed.
and you, my friend, you are a smart, articulate, insightful person who i hope will remain my friend and encourage me through this change.
maybe you can figure out what the hell i'm doing.
if you can, let me know.

[sweetk701]

Don't know if I qualify as friend material, but I did enjoy your ramblings from time to time! Good luck in your journey! You already know what Yogi Berra would say!