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subtexts

"tiny and meaningless and sad-making"

Dec 21, 2015 00:59

I wonder about myself. I wonder about myself constantly ( Read more... )

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symptosis December 20 2015, 23:00:43 UTC

This entire entry is "brutally honest and vulnerable." You're very insightful about your thoughts and actions (or lack thereof). That's what strikes me after reading it. Also, I really like your tidbit about the desire to travel off the beaten path; while simultaneously, still feeling overshadowed & assailed by ideals of what I'd refer to as the stereotypical white-picket fence dream life.

subtexts February 15 2016, 10:47:30 UTC

The thing is, I'm doing neither - that is, travelling off the beaten path, or chasing the white-picket fence dream. It's this ambivalence in between these two dichotomies that's paralysing. Perhaps I will never have the courage or conviction to choose, too afraid to take a risk or be disappointed.

cotton_candy_sk January 24 2016, 00:23:57 UTC

2)I’ve read your journal for years. I remember all the comments that you used to get from people - saying you changed their lives, their perspective on something - that your creativity made them feel good. How, in God’s name, would you feel so worthless about yourself ( ... )

cotton_candy_sk January 24 2016, 00:31:11 UTC

1)You are a lovely person. Whenever I read you writing, I feel this sense of wonder, this sense of awe, this sense that life is worth something, almost spiritually nourished. It truly is beautiful - and if there is something that makes me angry at this world, it’s seeing how writing like yours is replaced by fakery online. When we’re more connected than ever but really, more lonely and disconnected than ever ( ... )

subtexts February 15 2016, 10:30:43 UTC

Thank you for taking the time to leave me this comment. I honestly appreciate it so much and I read it carefully, several times ( ... )

cotton_candy_sk March 2 2016, 20:25:53 UTC

When I first started using LJ, I had two friends both of whom I knew before, but you were one of my first LJ friends ( ... )

ext_3499637 January 31 2016, 07:53:53 UTC

I miss you. Email me? I know we've lost touch over the years, but I still keep the little book you made me in my night stand.
Ele
Aphillips19@gmail.com

subtexts February 15 2016, 10:39:41 UTC

You'll always be very special to me, Ariele. You made a significant impact on me when I was younger. I still remember our first long emails. The things you told me about your past, your loves, your job. My life in comparison was just about school and some girl that didn't return my affections completely, or being controlled by my parents, and the vague notion that I'd one day have to be an adult and make it in life on my own. I still have the bracelet you sent me. And I wish you all the happiness and the love in the world.

starcinders April 1 2016, 21:15:41 UTC

Hi, love. I just want to say that I miss our talks. Our cahier project. You made a big impact on me back in the webdesign days and at the height of the LJ era. I truly hope we can reconnect someday. Your writing has always been deeply meaningful to me...I don't know if I have the words to describe how it speaks to me. It's sort of a visceral, magical thing that I can't really explain.

I think of you often.

<3