scarlet temptation beguiles inspiration
lost
burst of sweet-tart fertility

sitting in the window ( Read more... )

the human condition ( Read more... )

despite talk of consistency
we insist on transparency;
secrecy.

falsehood flings truths only half-heartedly

I'm so
tired.

he becomes excited when I show him the pieces of myself ( Read more... )

he laughs when he's afraid,
& when he's happy

I fuck when I'm insecure
& when I'm horny

often I'm afraid
he's laughing
and we're fucking
each other

in my bed
in our brains

insecurity continues to plague
and I don't understand how 
"not-to-be-jealous"

"fuck you"
I say to him
"you already did"

he replies

confliction ( Read more... )

nothing feels right today ( Read more... )

left to right to left to right
up an octive, and back down.
up an octive, and back down.
up & down and up & down my brown hair sweeps to cover my eyes
my reddening excitement
and my fingers tap with ease across the keys
black & white and black & white
sharp there, rarely any flats,
my wrists angled with perfection
shh shh shh
I turn to him, for once non- ( Read more... )

but he makes my heart happy
with his words of

"kindred souls"
and 
compliments
and kisses
and
kindness.

I'm fine, when I don't see him,
but after I do,
I long for the touching to continue
the gentle smile
the kind giggles
the words he whispers

why does he say such things?
is it normal to doubt such words that fill my pining so neatly?

what does this mean to him?
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