27 weeks.
13 more weeks.

tomorrow its 3 months exactly.
and now i am cleaning out my messy room so i can make space for my baby girl.
homegirl already has more clothes than me (yay for hand-me-downs!)

its crazy how tired one gets when one is preggo.
im exhausted from cleaning. how pathetic.

-call to schedule diabetes testing.
-call to find out about baby insurance crap.
-clean my room.
-organize all the crap in my room. of which there is a lot.
-target with my mom to work on baby registry stuff.
-work.
-nap.
-bible study.
-read?

i am a complete hormonal and emotional wreck.
and i'm sick of it.
plus i get horrible sleep because i am never comfortable.
ugh.
i don't want to be pregnant anymore.
only 3 more months.
and then after that only 18-21 years.
aka forever.
holy crap.

i am terrified, exhausted, nervous, sad, confused, and done.
spent. completely.

i believe hope is a thing that i will find, if someone just will show me ( Read more... )

bradynn elizabeth update: she's a kicking machine. probably super hyper already like her dad. now when she kicks i can usually feel and SEE it. its crazy. my stomach jumps up. fun! i love it. i don't get how people don't believe in God ( Read more... )

the bottom of the ocean floor is pretty complex. The human body is too. hell, cells are even complex and complicated. i am a person who is usually easily amused and made happy. and so why is it so hard for God to make this so within my life? its an age old question, but why is there so much evil in the world? why is there so much sadness, pain, ( Read more... )

for this year to come to an end.
maybe january won't bring about any happy events... but i am excited to say goodbye to the unpleasant ones that have cluttered my year.
year started with death.
is now ending with death.
and a bunch of shit in between.

i just cant take a whole lot more disappointment or crying.

i am having a BABY GIRL!!!!

bradynn elizabeth dann, due anywhere between april 25 and may 1st!
i could not be happier. basically.
:)

till i find out what the popsicle is!!!!!
yay!
tomorrow, at 3 pm... ultra sound!
yay!!!!!
i cant wait. im not gonna sleep tonight.

yes i must go through the valley,
to stand upon the mountain of God...
<3