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suchthefangirl

Wherein I'm a dork

Feb 22, 2012 14:08

A few weeks ago I was really depressed. I think I'm actually clinically depressed, so that's nothing new. Sometimes though, I'm more depressed than others. I've never be so bad that I didn't get up (I rarely sleep, so not getting up would be weird), but I can tell when it's really bad. You know that feeling when you just don't care, and everything ( Read more... )

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phoebesmum February 22 2012, 23:15:31 UTC

I am jealous of practically everyone, starting with anyone who can do anything worthwhile (sing, dance, paint, etc) and going on to everybody who doesn't have Fucking Cancer, so I can't tell you off about being jealous. I would be, too ( ... )

suchthefangirl February 23 2012, 19:36:46 UTC

Every time Hubby goes away he comes back with stories of these awesome people that he's met and is now friends with. I feel so left out. And he gets frustrated about it all. I really can't wait for this book to be done, because when it is, I get to go traveling with him. I will like that ( ... )

phoebesmum February 23 2012, 23:36:45 UTC

I have the 'not making anything of my life' concern too - though I suppose I've left it a bit late! As I was getting over the chemo I was starting to stress about how stupid it would be to get over cancer and then go back to my dead-end job ... but I couldn't think what else I could do. Editing is really the only thing I'm good at, but the publishing world is impossible if you don't have the right contacts. Anyway, it's all academic, as I don't know whether I'll ever be able to go back to work. The cancer isn't curable, it's too widespread. It probably won't kill me either, they can keep it under control, but there will likely be surgery and more chemo and who knows what else. What joy, eh? Still, it's better than just lying down and letting it have its way.

D#2 looks absolutely smashing in her glasses. I know that's not the main point of them, but it's a bonus!

xxx

suchthefangirl February 24 2012, 01:02:50 UTC

I have a friend who's in hospital right now because of cancer. Every time either of you is going through anything, I think of both of you. She's been going through this for years and years now. I'm hoping, like her, that you'll be well enough to do stuff again soon? She keeps going back to work until she can't...

Really, I just hope both of you Get Better! Like, now ( ... )

proftempus February 23 2012, 14:46:22 UTC

Yeah, what she said.
Hope D2's vision is okay. Have there been issues to make you secretly worried?

suchthefangirl February 23 2012, 19:44:28 UTC

She's fine. New glasses and everything. The reason that I was nervous (and to some extent, still am) is that none of the local doctors caught the problem with D#1, so I don't trust them IF there's something wrong with D#2. And the fact that she found her glasses from when we were on the tour and started wearing them again, but complained that they weren't good enough, wich meant that her eyes have gotten worse in the last four or so years. This scares me. But the doctor said she was fine, so we'll keep our fingers crossed. And she loves the new glasses.

Are you feeling better? I've been worried about you. GN was beyond small. But from working then and a few days since, The whole top of the puzzle is completely done. Only grass is left! Are you coming tomorrow? I'll make Hubby tell you all his stories. I am so very jealous!

Hugs

proftempus February 24 2012, 17:48:39 UTC

I started wearing glasses at 11. My eyes always got worse every year. That's normal. Whereas with D1, I remember she wasn't seeing things not just that they were blurry.
Yeah, feeling much better, thanks. Planning on coming tonight. Probably just me this time. My own D has plans.