I'll still use livejournal every now and then, i guess, as a personal life blog. But I've got another blog that details something else that's been going on in my life for the past few months now. Check it out if you want to. http://travisht.blogspot.com/

So, I've come to terms with it, and there really is nothing that I can do about this. I may as well just let this run its course, and if it kills me, then so be it. What else am I to do? I fucking hate living this way. It's a never ending cycle and I can't seem to break the chain. I want, no, I need help. WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO???

I GOT MY DRIVER'S LICENSE!! WOOO YAY

I'm so not over Derrick yet. And he still treats me like shit. I miss him. He was my world, and since he left me, I feel like I have no one else. I love him more than anything, and I'd do anything for Derrick. He used to be such a great guy ( Read more... )

and i'm all alone. no derrick :\ it's depressing. my mom drank pretty much the whole bottle, but last night i had just enough vodka left to drink myself to sleep... i miss him so much and i wish he were here with me today. it would mean more to me than any of my christmas presents. i wonder where he is, or what he's doing right now ( Read more... )

bleeeeehhhhhhhh it's never gonna get better.

Life is shitty. I'm so sick of the same bullshit every fucking day of my life ( Read more... )

I just woke up. It's like noon. The power kept going out last night and I got scared ( Read more... )

TRAVIS (YES THATS ME) LOVES DERRICK (YEAS THAT'S MY BOYFRIEND)

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