" Yesterday I remember think I was the happiest person in the whole earth, in the whole galaxy, in all of God's creation. Could that only have been yesterday or  was it endless light-years ago?"

new years eve was a bummer.
another terrible start to the new year.
thrid crappy new years eve in a row.
hey, hopefully this year will be a wee bit better.

recently i'm such a different person. i don't know whether to embrace it or run away.

it 's pretty much been an awesome weekend. i love ali santoro and alcohol. i hate my decisions but whatelse is new. a slap in the face.

im an easy whore.

 oh man, way to go sue. give yourself a pat on the back!

i wrote a while ago that i needed a fresh start. well i got one. & i just put myself back into the same situation. i was fully aware of what i was doing and that i told myself that i wouldn't, yet i still continued. why is it that i repeat mistakes that i've made in the past, that i can't just learn from it and move on? this is all i can think ( Read more... )

i feel blank, empty like an abandon home. i'm treating the people that mean the most to me terrible, i'm aware of it. just can't stop, i don't know. i'm emotionally exhusted and have no motivation to do anything. this is so not like me, i wish i knew what was going on. not only with myself but with everything. i feel like i'm standing in the center ( Read more... )

"If there's one thing I've learned, it's that we 
never feel the heat until we get burned.
But we try so hard not to die.
Sometimes we forget to appreciate life."

I'm really confused about how things can get better and worse at the same time, how life can move in one direction and the complete opposite direction all at once, how people just appear from ( Read more... )

 I'm really sick of my mother's childish games. She either has to grow up or move out because I just can't take it any longer. I'm tired of being upset and in a terrible mood because she has to be so spiteful and tick me off so she can feel better about herself. I need someone to just help me escape all this bullshit, someone who will put a smile ( Read more... )

 i hate how school begun to eat up all my free time.