so i got back from nor cal on wednesday night. at like 1030 ish or so. was supposed to hang out that night, but my mom was being lame ( Read more... )

lifes been pretty shitty.

it seems as if when one thing goes bad, everything just seems to follow.
it sucks.

but. i've decided to go to san jose with mi madre until tuesday night or wednesday morning. mainly to see winchester and do all that stuff. because i've wanted to for the longest time. but also to see if i can make her gain my trust again. ( Read more... )

so the past couple days have been pretty decent ( Read more... )

so i've decided to wait to go to alaska ( Read more... )

so i lost the love of my life and my best friend last night.
he told me that the spark he had for me was gone.
and that those don't come back.

i'm dying inside.

i have to talk with my sister in law and my mom again today. because i dont want to go to alaska. it'll just make everything worse.
i want to be here where i have friends that care about me. not ( Read more... )

i've never been so miserable in my entire fucking life ( Read more... )

of people who care that i am moving away.

-    N O O N E.

there that was simple.

easy as pie.

one major thing im worried about me moving is him falling out of love with me.

i have a huge feeling it will happen. and makes me want to vomit. it makes me soo sick to my stomach.

and to think...he was worried about me breaking his heart.

the tables have turned my friend.
the tables
have turned.

i want to cry. but i cant. im supposed to be a strong ( Read more... )

so went to joeys last night, then to erikas.
everyone was drinking. 
i didnt have one drop though.
ha if it wasnt for the cigs, i'd so be straight edge. aha LAME.
but i ended up driving mattjohn home cuz he puked allllllllll over himself at erikas, and there was NO way anyone was going to let him drive home, so i drove his car and him, to his house ( Read more... )

i have sooooo many doubts about certain things. SOOOOOOOO many. and it pisses me off.

but anyways...

so im kinda sad.

wont be able to see shaun before i leave. blah.

doubt i'll see markymark. even though he lives HELLA close.

i get to see joey tomorrow. and my twin. and michele. and whoever else.
it should be fun. its for erikas bday. <3  i ( Read more... )