all i want is just to forget everything and make all the pain im feeling right now go away...i dont wana feel anything anymore...

my DVD came today :oD!!!! it made me happy to see that its finally here. my audition wen really well suprisingly....but now im home and yeahhh. i can stop pretending to smile now i guess...blahh i guess all i can do is numb the pain for now....

so is it normal that i cant feel anything anymore and i dont know if i can trust anyone?...ive seriously never felt so alone until now....

yeahhh so fuck you too? im getting trashed this friday whos with me?

hmm i really dont know what to say...ive been pretty quiet and just really blank lately. i really have no complaints and i really have nothing to even be aggravated about. i guess thats a good thing right now. although ive been feeling kind of isolated lately but thats nothing i even complain about or even care about. ive been feeling kind of ( Read more... )

so i really dont know what to say anymore. i guess i really am to closed up and i dont even bother to stop and look around me to see whats going on....

so is it ok that im starting to backout now? :o/

yo today was weird and intresting at the same time...

i seriously dont no whats worng with me. i seriously feel like im losing grip of everything. this whole week has sucked completely. this morning i completely broke down and of course henry being the amazing brother he always is came in to rescue me and made me feel better and snapped some sense into me. ive seriously been feeling really lonely and ( Read more... )

ugh i seriously suck at life so much rite now.