Comments | suicidalme66: my thoughts... kinda

suicidalme66

my thoughts... kinda

Aug 03, 2005 19:59

I keep telling my self your not the one for me, but the more I say it, the more I realize that it’s true. The truth: you just may be. I keep trying to keep all the things that I feel one big secret, not let any one know the real me or even come close to figuring me out, but then you came along, and the second you met me, you knew what I was all ( Read more... )

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missemoprincess August 4 2005, 04:49:18 UTC

i don't know why i keep coming back for more. maybe i was getting used to it and was hoping that with time my feelings of emptiness would just dull.i can't tell you what to think, do, or feel, but i'm tired of trying to convince myself that this is real. i can't change who you are and i'm not going to try, if that's the way you want it, go ahead, it's your life. maybe the reason i find it hard to trust is because we started out with a lie, so how was i to know that nothing else was? how was i to know that nothing was going on when you told me yourself that you liked people? if you don't think things that you do are questionable...then why do you want to be with someone who questions them? why be with someone who will never approve of it, when you seem to love it so much? is it just one more thing you can pick at? you say you love me...do you even know who i am? i'll be honest...this relationship is different than any other i've ever had...we don't tell eachother what's on our minds and that's a huge problem, and there are other ( ... )

missemoprincess August 4 2005, 04:52:51 UTC

cont: and i'm even more sorry if i hurt you, and that i didn't talk to you over the phone or in person to do this. i hate hurting people, and i'm not very good with words. i hope you can understand that, and all of this. i care about you a lot and hope you don't hate me and that we can stay friends.
-amy

suicidalme66 August 4 2005, 12:49:34 UTC

none of that is what i really meant at all. you took every thign the wrong way. im sorry. i didnt mean for this to happen. i dont want to break up. not at all. please dont do this. i'd change everything about me if it meant i got one more night with you, please dont do this. I love you.