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Private to Self - Private to Terry - July 14, 2000

Jul 14, 2006 01:35

Pansy wrote me. I think I'm supposed to feel bad. Worse than bad. I probably ought to feel like driving a sharp object deep into my brain. At least I hope that's what I'm supposed to feel because it's exactly what I'm feeling. Actually I think I feel worse. I feel . . . I don't know. Lost perhaps? And maybe a bit angry because sure she had ( Read more... )

2000, july, journal entry, private to terry, private

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Private to Dragon terry_schtiwl July 14 2006, 19:06:50 UTC

I have.
And I'm assuming, you have as well. Otherwise, why ask? Right?

Private to Terry suicide_blonde_ July 15 2006, 10:01:13 UTC

Yes. I'm in exactly that situation right now and I hate it. I think maybe I'm not a very good person, which isn't a surprise, but it rather is. I guess.

I hate my brain at the moment.

Private to Dragon terry_schtiwl July 15 2006, 14:41:03 UTC

I don't think anyone is ever really a bad person, per se. (That might sound like blind, youthful idealism, but believe me. It's not.) Just- honestly, there're good points, as it were, to most each person, whether small or large.-- Anyway, I always find that if you don't regret whatever it is you've done- you can't honestly apologise, therefore, what's the point of even pretending?

And I completely, whole-heartedly empathise.

Private to Terry suicide_blonde_ July 17 2006, 23:07:08 UTC

That's what makes dealing with people so damn hard in the first place. I suppose you've got a point, though. About everything.

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