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suicide_junkie

to all.

Oct 30, 2004 21:22

to everyone, who cares, its such a good feeling to say that. im cant even begin to describe how sorry i am, -cries- this feeling of being alive wen ur saposed to be dead is just horraible -cries- wen i awoke this morrning i screamed & cried my life out, i gave myself a black eye, i didnt feel it at the time for i was saposed to be dead ( Read more... )

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fresh_new_ccoma October 31 2004, 16:26:09 UTC

omg. i cried last night, you need to stop all of this. you cant be doing this any more. i love you, but i think anonymous has a point.

foreversimple October 31 2004, 19:53:07 UTC

I LOVE U OLIVIA!!!!
your like the sister i never had.. -cries-
please dont u ever do anything stupid that will ruin our friendship. :(

were_over__ November 1 2004, 07:39:36 UTC

okay all i have to say is i know this probably pisses people off and sure other people have it worse but olivia is still going through what shes going through, and thats that. theres no changing it, and if this is the way she feels then this is the way she feels.

I love you Olivia. i hope your mom didnt kill you today O_o

deadzenmen November 1 2004, 09:49:25 UTC

I'm so sorry you are going through this terrible black time. And so glad, even though you may not be, that you are still here. Please take care. Please stay.....

scott

deadzenmen November 1 2004, 10:43:14 UTC

I posted a longer piece in anyotherworld but I want to say a small something here regarding the anonymous response. Yes, other people in other places are starving, being tortured, etc... but that does not make your suffering any less valid. Every human being is different and each one deals with pain differently. Pain is relative, not uniform. It is a lie that just because someone is in a worse economic, domestic or governmental state has the right to hurt where the rest of us don't. I wish it were that easy, that it did work that way. If it did, therapy, meds, psych wards, psychiatrists, psychologists would all cease to exist. I do hope you are able to see your way through your pain without choosing to leave but don't let anyone tell you that what you are feeling doesn't hurt. You know damn well it does. You are loved and we are here.

deadzenmen November 1 2004, 13:51:10 UTC

I was never suggesting that she wasn't worthy of feeling pain for she was not enduring the incredible strife other people are subjected too. What I was doing was pointing out one thing. Strength. And it seems as though, she is choosing to be the victim. Look, in all sincerity, when it comes down to it, she is choosing to be where she is at right now. There are millions of cases, of Heroine addicts, Cocaine addicts, real people like you and me for jesus fuckin' christ, who have overcome their struggle to continue thru the path that they were headed. They chose to undergo years of the rehabitation process, and I don't even see her ATTEMPTING to get there..Of course I"m going to compare her to them..BECAUSE IN FACT IT does make a difference how bad the situation is..What i'm saying is, if they can fuckin' do it, when they were looking death in the face, and byy all means, i must point out, they were addicted, PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY to a drug, then she could fuckin' make it too..But she's choosing not too..and I'm not gonna admire her ( ... )