what the fuck. . .

[suicide_kisses_]

so I feel like i'm about to colapse with evrything in my life that i have made right,the other night i got just a lil buzz and i wanted mroe, but i had nothing, I wanted to go raid a medicine cabinate, i wanted to get fucked up in any posable way that i could i wanted to smoke i wanted to cut i wanted to do awhole bunch of shit, get pills ni-quil,

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[escapethroughme]

Stephy...

Dur... you know im going through the same thing as you. Im not addicted to those pills, but i just fucking <3 the way they make me feel. Its like for once your in control of losing control.

You can talk to me about this subjuect cuz I get ya, and you know im here for ya.

Love ya poo.

[xo_alicia_ox]

holy moly! steph. I know how you feel. Like when I was addicted to meth and yeah. like i was like oh it will be so easy to quit...but when it came time for me to try to quit, it was so hard....but i did it. and now when i go around it, and the people who do it...i want to do it. becuase yeah i love the feeling, and the taste...i love almost everything about it...and i get all weird like that too....it sucks.

I lost control it sucked so bad and still I want to do it, and i drive myself crazy about wantting to do it but then not..I lvoe it but i hate it...i hate the side affects but i love the first hit, and that high feeling....and even though i HATE HATE HATE it I WANT to do it so badly. :( it sucks but if you need to talk...and you feel comftorable enough talking to me, cause we dont really talk and all. but if you need anything I'm here love you stephy.

[m_a_w_b_d]

what the fuck are you talking about?

[choke_me_]