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May 24, 2009 11:16

So, yesterday was my boyfriend's 18th birthday and I went to his house with his family and I actually had fun despite the fact his mom and sister were there. They were actually nice and friendly to me. It was fun. All I ate was a cheeseburger and I think his mom is worried about me now. She kept trying to get me to eat more. And drink more. But it ( Read more... )

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suicide ascendmeaway May 27 2009, 00:58:45 UTC

I'd like to post a suicide journal here or some where where it wont die can some one tell me how? I figured since you posted this page (I think) that I could ask you thanks for answering..for now I'll just post on this page. Tomorrow I'm thinking about getting zopiclone (a sleeping drug to help me sleep at night) but I'm also thinking about something else..please don't report me if you do I wont trust another person /computer again.

I wish to end my life I've heard people dieing on as little as 90mg I know I will have to drown myself maybe I will wait until my family buys a pool or when I get on ssi I'll buy a pool...or I can drown in my bathtub when my parents aren't here. Oh the thought of being able to die comforts me so..I wish I had some one to share life with to keep me alive but I think I f*cked up and God probably thinks I'm selfish ..hell I would probably displease every person I met (thus far I have).

Re: suicide mrsmartinez13 May 27 2009, 01:34:13 UTC

you could make your page a suicide journal. like your journal. i kinda made mine an anorexia one.

i won't report you, i promise. you can trust me.

i can be someone for you to talk to. calling, texing, emailing, on here, myspace, anywhere. i can be that person. i've been alone before. i've attempted. i know what you feel. even though i still have severe thoughts of my death... i write in these communities to help me realize i can make it.

you wouldn't displease me. i don;t ave a lot of friends. and i get lonely. the only thing keeping me here is my boyfriend. if he left... i'd be dead. really. and i want to be someone for you. will you let me?

my cell number is (727)348-2455
my email is musicxxrockx13x@hotmail.com
my aim is latuacantante08
my lj is mrsmartinez13

text all you want. call if you want. email all the time. aim, i'll download it again just for you.

lj, i'm on here every single day.

i'll be here for you. i'll be your friend. my name is lexie, by the way.

Re: suicide ascendmeaway May 27 2009, 18:24:02 UTC

I tried to msg you and email you a few times now but no avail I think I'm going to give up..seeing your story makes me feel more guilty about posting it but I just dunno. I saw a pic of you I think it was of you you are not fat if this is true..but any way I should be the last person in the world giving advice to some one I kind of feel guilty leaving a suicide journal behind but at the same time if it's a painless death I figure it will help many out who can't find a way to cope like myself..I dunno your thoughts?

I know from my blog you probably think I'm a total nut but any way *shrug* it's okay if you ignore me many do. People feel like walls now they are just there but can't hear me.

Re: suicide mrsmartinez13 May 27 2009, 22:17:23 UTC

hmm, i'm sorry it didn't work... i'm not sure why? bad connection with the computers? try again maybe. thank you for saying that. yes, that was me, btw ( ... )