It was over 30 years ago that I realized that while bad things had happened, the impulse to suicide was from malfunctioning brain chemistry. It wasn't me, and it was not going to beat me.
The level-headed reason: I want to accomplish something that would stand out to the people around me who are still alive to kinda help them remember who I was, and not just focus on way that I died.
The insanely vain/eating disorder reason: I don't want people to see me as fat, even though I know that people bloat upon death.
blue. and other colors. music. dead, I wouldn't be affected by any of that any more and I am a bit of a sensualist I guess so I want as much blue and as much music as I can get in whatever time is left
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The insanely vain/eating disorder reason: I don't want people to see me as fat, even though I know that people bloat upon death.
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