i don't even know.
for some stupid reason. i thought this year was going to be better. but i'm already going fucking insane.
no one would even miss me if i died. the world wouldnt be any different. i dont contribute anything, i suck at everything i try.
i just feel like this huge ugly waste of space. what have i even done that makes me deserve to be alive?
nothing.
im a fucking mess and i deserve to be alone
i've given up hope on waiting this out to see if they get better. they dont. they get worse and worse.