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Yay I'm finally going back to treatment. I'm going through Kaiser. This is going to be a headache considering the type of treatment I'm seeking. It's almost impossible to get individualized CBT sessions through Kaiser. However, I finally realized what kind of help I need and how to go about doing it, so it's the only way.
I just got out from yet another attempted suicide. At this point I realize that almost all of my break-downs lately can be attributed to borderline personality disorder. I always avoided the diagnosis because I thought people would stop taking me seriously. Then after repeated hospitalizations I lost all of my friends anyway. People stopped taking me seriously anyway. So I might as well confess that there's something wrong with me and fix it.
I'm scared. But there's no time to think about that. I'm ready to be functional again. What can I do to maximize the benefits of treatment? How can I become a functional, likable human-being again?
I just got out from yet another attempted suicide. At this point I realize that almost all of my break-downs lately can be attributed to borderline personality disorder. I always avoided the diagnosis because I thought people would stop taking me seriously. Then after repeated hospitalizations I lost all of my friends anyway. People stopped taking me seriously anyway. So I might as well confess that there's something wrong with me and fix it.
I'm scared. But there's no time to think about that. I'm ready to be functional again. What can I do to maximize the benefits of treatment? How can I become a functional, likable human-being again?