Boyfriend
Jaejoong’s POV:
It hurts to know he doesn't need me. My friends told me I’m stupid for liking someone so much... His friends said it’s pathetic to chase after someone so desperately. But what can I do? I just love him so damn much.
My name is Kim Jaejoong, a senior, and I love Jung Yunho.
Truth is he and I were friends before I confessed to him on the last day of sophomore years. His face, the face that will haunts me even when I’m asleep, it was pure disgust. After that, he stopped phoning me, texting me, or even talk to me. The worst thing was he did not even know I existed.
I spent my entire summer trying to make Yunho acknowledge me even as a friend or even talk to me… I received no reply.
I’m so hurt from losing you ...
But I wonder
how can I lose something I never had?
When I entered junior year, I have one goal in mind… to make Jung Yunho falls in love with me.
My family sometimes asks me what I am to him for I always make lunch for Yunho. My replies would always be, “He’s my boyfriend.”
Yunho had almost hit me for spreading a rumor that he’s gay and he had threatened me to stop it before he hurts me.
One big problem Yunho, you had already hurt me… emotionally.
Every day I would run to his classroom, offering my handmade lunch for him only to have him coldly refused it. Of course during one of those times, his friends would mock me and took my lunch instead. I was starved that day… every day. It broke my heart to see the numerous girls he had his arms around whenever I see him.
My minds saying forget about him
He doesn’t love you
the way you love him
But,
My heart is saying
don’t ever let go.
Beginning of senior year, that’s when it gets worse, Yunho and I are in the same class. Don’t take me wrong, I was literally jumping from joy until I saw him making out with one of his girlfriends before class. That’s when I would bite my lips, holds back my tears, and ran to my seat.
Again, my family would ask me the same questions, “He’s my boyfriend.”
The same answer.
In love nothing goes right
Instead of smiling
you cry cause the pain it puts you through
Instead of staying up all night thinking of how great he is
You stay up all night crying because of him
And instead of having him tell u how much he loves you
He ignores you as if you weren’t even alive.
I had thought of giving up, yes, to make the pain go away. My friend were nice enough to introduce me to someone nice and handsome… but why is it whenever I look at them, all I see is Yunho?
My daily routine of bringing lunch to Yunho hadn’t change nor does his answer, but this time it gets worse… He would show me the lunch one of his numerous girlfriends made for him and coolly walks away with her stuck to his chest. His friends would take the lunch instead and the process repeats until Winter Break.
On the last day before Winter Break, I walked around searching for Yunho. Stopping in the middle of the hallway, I could hear moaning and groaning coming out from one of the classroom. I had wanted to ignore them and leave them to their things until a husky, smoothing voice broke me from within.
It was Yunho and his girlfriend… doing things only lovers do.
I opened the door a little to see that Yunho had the girl pinned under him on a desk, rocking his lower parts onto hers, and their sounds would reach Jaejoong’s ears like poison. He ran. He ran until his breath left him. He ran like he had never run before… out of the school and possibly out of his love for Yunho.
I
cry because I know he doesn’t feel the same way I do,
I cry because I think of how pathetic I am and I cry because I think I’m going to be crying forever...
They say falling for you is my biggest mistake but how
can it be so wrong if it feels so right?
If ever I made a mistake, it's not that I fell for you; it's thinking
that someday you'll fall for me too...
Author's Note:
Haha.... this story will be the last thing I'll write before Winter Break. I'm on hiatus but this idea suddenly hit me and I couldn't wait to write it. I hope it was to your liking :D
I'll try to update the second one by tomorrow.... I'm not promising anyone for I'm afraid I'll break my promise.
Leave me a comment please <3.