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[sukhino]

i would like to say that i am still so very happy. life as this sweetness and this humour like never before. perhaps it is the place, and the lack of reponsibilities. but i don't think so, cause i see many grumpy faces around me, people strung out with walls up and worries on their faces. worries abou tnot getting their share, about being ripped

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[aeon_of_maat]

I don't think it is possible to escape the world in your head without also escaping the external world. they seem to be part of the same process, and any chang ein one corresponds with change in the other

[sukhino]

i would loveto talk to your brother. um, but actually my mom is gettin married the following july, so i don't think i will go this summer.
but, but but. i never know. in the mean time why don't we set up a phone chat when i get back.

and yes i am with you on the first bit of your comment.
i think that this is the startignpoint of practice, that there will be more points as i continue to practice.
in general i am having fun with choiceless awareness. and with the fact that life is seeming ever more simple the and mroe i am watching it. and also ever more mystical as i relax into no thavign the answeres, in not needing to know how it all came to be.
it is such a light feeling to not want things to be answered so much.

[aeon_of_maat]

yeah. its funny how the stereotypical mystic is the one who answers all questions with other questions.
once nats out of the hospital and you're back to canada, I'll see about setting up a call. It shouldn't be hard.
L-ov-E

[darcy_mackenzie]

i really like the idea of devotional painting. so often i would like to do something artistic but not only do i not have any ideas of my own, i do not want to have any ideas of my own. i feel like the world is already full of ideas that i want to celebrate. i had felt maybe this was just ripping off stuff but it wasn't really about that. more like celebrating what has already come before me.

the card you sent me with the little animals on it - i would like to emulate that and create some similar artworks for the kw area. i find it to be the most inspiring, touching thing and i'd like to be a part of creating something like that.

[jascha]

this reminds me of a quote from steve reich about why he prefers fully noted scores for musical performance:

"By voluntarily giving up the freedom to do whatever momentarily comes to mind, we are, as a result, free of all that momentarily comes to mind."

[sukhino]

aieeee! yes. i msut say i never felt so free as when i was n a retreat and had no choice as to what i was doping next. havign a score for my life you couls say. it didn't matter what whim came to mind, i jsut had the thing to do next.
so nice.
Krishnamutrti said that there is no freedom without disciplin

[sukhino]

oh yes. i have s troy to tell you about that postcard. remind me when i get home.
and i think you would be such a great devtotional painter, i think you already are.
your emulation is sweet, not a rip off at all. plus, it is all the same stuff over and over no matter what! and, to actually take yourself out of the process is way more avant garde in my veiw, then some how trying to express your soul (as i am feeling more and more that there is none).

love you,
m.

[rokkitz]

"i thought this the other day. how rare it is that i interact with the actual person in front of me. how more often i interact with the idea i hae of the person. how wild that is, that i would rather go throught the work of making up a person and interacting with that rather than jsut being opne to the person in fornt of me."

oh yeah, that hits the spot. glad to read you're well. :o)

[sukhino]

yay! always makes me happy when some random thought hits the spot.
take care.