blah.. not in a good mood at all. i feel like crying so i will. Fuck what you think i dont care, say im emo say whatever you want it doesnt matter anymore. fuck you

mmm soup. well today was rockin. My plans changed so i actually could do something *yay* sos me and ileana went to harvard and then she came over for a lil ..yeah she kicked my ass in candyland and chutes and ladders. She left and then 'round 5:30-ish John came over.. teehee.. um yeah i own his ass in candyland, yet i am a failure at the chutes and ( Read more... )

eh i guess im feeling better than i was yesterday. um let's see.. i got my tattoo yay! It's all pretty and stuff 'cept for the fact that it's on my body. ew. um other than that not too much happened john came over for a lil while and then i was alone in the house and yeah thats when i start feeling low because theres no one to talk to. Like right ( Read more... )

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So cold, yeah i am so cold
Isolated, my mind
My mind is numb
Unable to feel, feel what?
Feel the pain.
I'll abstain from the pain
Ha, i'd rather be numb then deal with this

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I am going in-fucking-sane. I haven't seen John for a long time.. (It's probably been like 5 minutes and im just pathetic).. But no i think the last time i saw him was Wed. I .. god i am going crazy.. i dont know what to do with myself. All this "me" time is making me so confused. i start thinking about stuff and it scares me. .. .I just want to

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wowzers.. anastasia rocks hardcoreness and anyone who talks shit about her is gonna hafta deal with me.. haha not much i could do but still dont mess with her! .. alrighty sos yeah continuing my day.. i finally got to drive !! oh yeah no cowboy thoughts either.. other than that went to a family christmas party.. fun fun.. no not really.

sos yeah i've decided im getting a tattoo. I'm getting a few stars on my collar bone im hoping it will look decent.