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[sullenoddity]

um... So does anyone who still bothers to look at my journal remember Naima? The girl who in short destroyed my world back in '04 and sent me spiraling into a depressed,bulimic, haze?

She just messaged me on facebook.

I don't know what to say to her.

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[vikkilynn]

I don't remember her but wow. I hate when things like that happen out of the blue. What did her message to you say?

[ashrisen]

I remember her and the saga. I guess what you say back depends on what she said to you. Did she apologize for anything or at least acknowledge the past or has she pretended nothing happened whatsoever?

[sullenoddity]

I was actually going to message you about this because I know you are very well worded with things like this and I have almost no one who knew the situation, but I thought maybe you'd think I was stupid for assuming you'd remember something from *my* life that happened 5 years ago.

The first message she sent me was merely a "hello." So I replied back telling her that I've thought about what I would say to her for 5 years and now I don't know what to think. I updated her on my life now and asked her what she was expecting me to say.

She wrote back and did apologize; she said it has haunted her since she left. She gave me an update on where she's at (sober 4 years, has a 2 year old daughter, getting a divorce) and apologized again.

I'm thinking I might give her my phone number (or she may have it, it hasn't changed) and tell her I'd rather talk to her than message because I feel like there's a lot of processing that needs to happen.

[ashrisen]

I admit that I don't remember all the details in terms of what actually went down but I do recall you were really, really upset about the whole ordeal and it was like she was dead to you somehow - that's how complete the rift was between you, whether you wanted it that way as a protection from further hurt from her or whether that's the way she bolted & never looked back (til now, apparently

[sullenoddity]

That was a lovely answer and I appreciate the time you took to write it out. It gave me a lot to think about. Of course me being the impulsive person I am (when I knew I should have waited to hear your response) already gave her my number... pretty sure she just called me and I didn't pick it up. =/

You're right though, I need to slow down with things and be more cautious.