My heart's acting up even worse than normal :(
It hurts.

that was a very very big mistake on my part.
now i feel like i got hit by a truck.
my whole entire body feels like jelly.
but i just wanted to sleep :(

i need to tell someone before i go off the deep end

life's not always about doing the right thing.
sometimes it's about breaking promises, about crossing the line, about letting go of what you want the most.
sometimes you have to do all the wrong things to feel all right again.

i'm going straight to hell.

for a variety of different reasons.

i hate my boss. i hope he gets run over my a wild herd of mongooses (or mongeese whatever). he really is quite the dick.

ugh i hate my iron. my third time trying to give blood this year and my third time being rejected! and my iron level dropped even more and last time i was so close, i was only 1% away from being able to donate. now i'm even further away. ugh. i'm so mad

i fucking hate her.

You know what, I don't know what it is about speaking about my dad that makes people feel awkward. If anyone should feel awkward or uncomfortable, it should be me, after all it happened to me, not someone else. And you know what I am so freaking sorry that the conversation makes YOU feel uncomfortable, that it makes YOU feel depressed, that it ( Read more... )

my ekg results are back.....

Too bad you had your chance and you blew it.