Add my name to the massive list of miserable people in this world.

It's not that I want to die, it's just that I don't want to be alive anymore.

Went to Haven tonight (oh no, I'm not "scene" enough!), mainly to wish Jessi a Happy Birthday and then get the hell out. I ended up running into a couple old friends of mine from high school as well, so it was nice to catch up with everyone. Basically, we all decided that our lives suck and we're going nowhere (but I'm going nowhere the fastest) ( Read more... )

I feel strange. Like a did something completely awful last night. I can't remember.

I put the application in for the apartment. If I check out alright, the place is mine July 1st. Then I'll get to spend the summer alone, weeee. And pay $700 a month plus utilities, by my damn self ( Read more... )

My fortune cookie this evening read as such.

"You will soon discover how truly fortunate you really are."

Well, I did get a cookie. Thrilling.

And yes, perhaps cried for a little bit. Hour or so.

It's sad, and I don't even remember when I last had a sense of irony.

EDIT: My heavily repressed OCD is sneaking up on me like wow.

Wow.

I have to get used to doing shit ALONE. Grrrr. I fucking hate it. Especially shopping ( Read more... )

I let them call me in early. Again ( Read more... )

Look what I found on my living room floor tonight! :D

( Easily frightened, turn away now... )

to watch your eyes age a hundred years
with simple mistakes -
palm to vein.
the warmth on my spine,
feeding waves of heat and indignity
is yours, truly.
courtesy.
lingering.
reluctance.
my breath collapses
and I lose myself.
your arms.
my love.

EDIT;; This is shit, but I felt like a mood lift.

I'm sick. This sucks. Every liquid in my body seems to be catching in my throat, trachea or nasal cavity, which makes it rather difficult to breathe...ick ( Read more... )