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[summaj]

have you ever watched yourself cry in the mirror? i did last night. and i noticed something interesting. i cry the exact way i did when i was a child. maybe that's not surprising but it struck me. i looked at the mirror and said to myself "is that what sad looks like? am i really that sad...the way a child is sad when he/she scrapes their knee?" i

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[hilmarie]

listen to your heart. be real tomorrow. you can do this. i love you always.

[skcor_esile]

dude. 12 days on and 4 days off sounds crazy. you're gonna burn yourself out. perhaps occupation and what really occupies you needn't be the same thing...

[laneybugsc]

Wow...that sounds exciting! If you can make a difference in someone's life...the is for you! The money is great, but make sure you like what you're doing to earn that money. Have you thought of writing for a magazine of some kind? You're such an excellent writer. I absolutely love your journals. Good luck today...if it feels good, maybe it's yours. Go with your heart. you'll make the right decision. I'll keep you in my thoughts today..wishing that you will make the right choice.

Love and big hugz...
Laney

[eslspun72]

I've struggled with my idealism for quite some time. Not only about my job but also my lifestyle. I constantly question myself about things like how can I relax and enjoy my successes and creature comfort while so many in the world suffer. I know this may not be exactly what you are struggling with but the idea is that as we mature and age we sometimes have to re-evaluate some of the ideas of our youth. In this, we are not disappointing our "inner child" we are actually parneting ourselves with reality rather than the idealized fantasies of our little ones. In the end even the little girl we remember ourselves to be grow up. We have the power to choose how harsh or loving this experience turns out to be. Just my thoughts.

[wallacebizbot]

dude. all i can say is i know how you feel. it is disorienating and confusing and heartbreaking to be confused about your place in the world.