First off...even though I'm not sure what relgion I am but this is more a culltural thing: HAPPY HAPPY VIETNAMESE/CHINESE/JAPANESE/TAIWANESE/THAILANDNESE/KOREANESE/MALAYANESE/ETC NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! I'm not sure which really celebrate cept first two. K, now ( Read more... )

Today was a much better day than yesterday. Today I woke up at 4am to do the hw I didn't do any of the night before cuz I was too busy getting upset trying to be all the great things I wanted to be for all the people I care about. I just want to start off w/ the things I'm so thankful for that made this day so much better than yesterday ( Read more... )

I'm scared of myself and what I have become. I called Alex. We talked but it kinda just made me feel sad. She had to go to yoga (that's where I should have been) so I called Mikey. By the time I dialed his number I was pretty messed up. I was sobbing pretty damn hard. I don't want to be like that. Something hurts. I'm afraid I'm addicted to ( Read more... )

Breathing...breathing...calm...not sad...not angry...just objective ( Read more... )

I'm not sure if I'm ok. Today there were a few times I thought to myself apathetically...

I don't want to fall in love ever again.
I don't believe in love.
Love is the terrible.
I don't want to feel so much pain ever again.
I'm kinda just trying to avoid the whole thought thinking about those problems all together. It won't do me any good ( Read more... )

So I just saw the best movie ever!!!!! Called What the Bleep Do We Know? And it is soooo amazing. Like it just like reinforced all the stuff I've been learning about life and pondering and questioning and investigating. It's such a crazy movie. And it's funny..."SYSTEM CRASH" lol ( Read more... )

I have been sad for so long that when I am happy I am so grateful to be happy. I want to share this happiness with the people who helped me get there. I want to share this happiness with the ones I love most. The sad part is I don't love my family the most. I guess I feel that way because they hurt me a lot in the past. I hope people dont' ( Read more... )

I think I owe it to you guys to let you know I feel ok now. I don't know what to say sometimes. I'm tired ( Read more... )

So yes, Coldplay is playing. "For you I'd wait till Kingdom comes/Until my days...until my days are done...Just say you'll wait...you'll wait for me ( Read more... )

My emotions have ruled me. I am suppose to control my emotions. Monday I knew I was losing so much control. I knew it. Like I was drowning but I didn't know how to swim. Before I was lost without a map ( Read more... )