and control i thought i had

just slips right through my hands

while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me, reprimands me

then and there

i confess

i'll blame all this on my selfishness

yet you love me

and that consumes me

and i'll stand up again

and do willingly

if you read this..

even if i don't speak to you often,

you must post a memory of me.

It can be anything you want

it can be good or bad

just as long as it happened

-becca

hmm.. well that past few days havnt been anything special. i went to sheas after school on friday then i stayed home for the night pretty much. but then later i went to jessys and slept over there. then saturday we had our competition which we got 1st in! =) and as another plus marino isnt as mad anymore that im not rejoining his class next year.

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i really want to go back to middle school. i just had this long talk with nick and it really got me thinking how so much changes in such little time.

well i just really miss everything.. aww the memories. everything was so much better
i miss it-- i miss last summer. i miss how things used to be. i miss 8th grade. i miss how close we all were. ( Read more... )

john fixed up my layout.. i like it.. hope everyone else goes too
other news..

omg shea finally got her camera delevoped from such a long time ago and omg these are gonna be the funniest pictures ever.. lmao that was a great sleepover.. i cant wait to see these tomarrow

i really need to start my homework earlier...

<3333 becca

johns gonna make my journal pretty =)
aww thanks john !

<3333 becca

just got back from states.. idk how we did though cause i left before awards.. it wasnt the best competetion.. but its all good ( Read more... )

ummm.... its been awhile so i dont remember everything but yeah ( Read more... )

he prolly hates me..
and that doesnt make anything better..
it accually makes me sad..
i want to be atleast friends..
i didnt want to ruin anything..
screw up..

i definatly have to say that i am so cool cause i bought myself a heart shaped thing of chocolate yesterday when i went to walgreens with alonzo and james.. they were all looking for stuff for their girlfriends so i was like screw it im getting some for myself *sungless smiley* it was small thought it only had like 5 pieces but they were yummy ( Read more... )