on death

[summercloud]

I'm terrified of dying. Not even so much the acutal dying part, but of what comes after. Of not-existing. I've always been scared of this, for as long as I can remember at least, and I think I'll always be scared of it. If I let myself think about it I start to panic. Really panic. And so I generally try not to think about it

Comments

[violetessence]

I've always been terrified of this. (My second-grade teacher told my parents when I questioned her on how I could be sure my heart would keep beating.) I'd majorly panic, especially at night, and creep myself out. Dying, and having everything I've done in my time on earth being useless, is my biggest fear. However, when I used to be more religious, I was even MORE afraid of existing forever (creeeeeeepy. Raises possibilities of eternal boredom with no escape

[sevda]

I've never been much afraid of dying (or of being dead), but I am afraid of being old and looking back on my life and realizing that I haven't lived the way I should have. That thought is deeply frightening to me, especially on the days when I feel like I'm not doing enough to make the world a better place, or like I'm not loving other people the way I want to and should