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[summerflame17]

im an idiot. no comment from any of you is necessary on that. but i just cannot be happy. no matter what i do, i find smth to complain about. thats pathetic. doesnt that just define me, after all? no, dot answer that either, itll just indulge my tendency towards drama. i must be a masochist, you know? i didnt have to say what i said, i could have

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[martian_42]

"i was happy you know, for a little while. it was awful, bc i knew it couldnt last, but still. but no, i had to ruin it."

I was happy too you know, for a little while, a bit longer in my case but still short. I knew it couldn't last, but still. I even thought I had accepted that, but I hadn't really. I didn't press; I didn't ruin it myself, so time did. Was it worth it? Hard to say. But I can say that waiting for it to prove it can't last isn't a whole lot of fun either. Unfortunately, life being as it is, we can't try both paths in a difficult decision. But don't spend too much time worrying you took the wrong one. I don't know if there was a right one, but I don't think the one you chose was any more wrong than the other and quite probably was less.

Life is confusing, and so are you, but both can be good friends if one gets to know them.

[electron100]

I don't know either life or Cidra. I consider one to be a good friend and the other to be a fickle friend. Therefore getting to know them isn't necessary. What I say at 1 am when headachey and overtired may not make sense.

[electron100]

Friends are there partly to complain to.

It's the people who are always striving for something better than accomplish great things in life.

Control defines life. Don't give that control to others. I agree with you there.

There area a few things about your recent actions that I don't really understand, so I won't comment on them, and you probably don't really want me to anyway.

I hope you feel better.
Cheers

[summerflame17]

you know, James, between me and life, in your descriptions, you didnt say which was which, and i could rather see either working perfectly well ;)
and i thought that it was the ppl who always strive or smth better that are never satisfied? well who knows, could be my mistake. and you know ill always think i complain too much, bc i do. im glad you agree about the control thing, i couldnt change that if i wanted to.
David, thank you for that, tho im not totally sure if either can become good friends. i guess it remains to be seen. kidding. being self depreciating
James, one more thing. try not to post on lj at 1 in the morning when ur headachy and supposed to be getting up in a couple hours. ill feel bad if ur short on sleep
i hope you feel better too, thats a little more important

[ianmalcolm93]

Believe me, you don't vent nearly enough as it is, dn't close up completely now. And who DOESN'T like fake ppl, you know?