A friend of mine told me that I am passive which is true. Instead of making things happen to me, I wait around for things to happen to me. I feel the need to do something. What am I waiting for indeed? I find this really pathetic and I am not sure how I can get out of it. Anyhoo, I am tired of thinking through things. I feel overwhelmed when I do. ( Read more... )

Weird to think that the weekend has began (it begins for me when I get off work). I am not quite sure of what my friends are doing tonight but I prefer to just stay home and possibly do the exciting job of cleaning my messy room. Reason for the messiness: my life is a mess. I can't begin how to pick my life up piece by piece. I feel so messy over ( Read more... )

I was at a company barbeque today which was kind of nice to be out in a hot weather. I did not know that they were going to have a pool there, otherwise I would have brought something to swim in. Anyhoo, I'm back from the nice company barbeque. My co-worker dropped me off here at home which I thought was very nice of him to do. I'm about to go to ( Read more... )

Been awhile since the last time I posted here. Nothing new has really happened. My dad is going to Australia and he has been gone from the US for almost a year (by next month). I feel alone without my family. Of course, I have my friends but coming from a close-knit family, one finds it difficult to somehow feel that void ( Read more... )

My father decided not to come back to the Bay Area. I am left with task of packing and having to find a new place to live. In a way, this is a good thing for me because I will get the chance to live in a Christian household which is quite a privilege to live in. The task of moving seems daunting to me and I already feel overwhelmed. Friends had ( Read more... )

Year 2007, another year full of hopes in regards to dreams to come true and in pursuit of sheer happiness and contentment. These are all just hopes, some may be dashed while others may be fulfilled. Either way, we are living life...and I hope that we are living it instead of letting it passed us by. At least, that's what I hope to happen in 2007 , ( Read more... )

Still at work because I am waiting for my bus that would take me to the mall. I need to get a gift for my friend in London. I feel so bad because I am behind with all these Christmas shopping (one main reason is that I am so broke) and behind as well with the Christmas cards. Christmas is already on Monday and I had not mailed out my Christmas ( Read more... )

I spent time with IJ yesterday. We went to the movies together and saw Casino Royale. CR has been gushing about it since it came out so I am glad that I got to see it finally. I had to go back to the gym to pick up the rest of my stuff though because I got them locked in one of the lockers. I had a hard time getting them out because I did not know ( Read more... )

Just got back from an amazing professionals' retreat at Dolce Hayes Mansion. I initially had my own room in the beginning but I wanted roommates and offered the spaces to two of my friends. I was glad to have company because I am used to having people around me. Sometimes living by oneself gets old and I long for the company of others ( Read more... )

A year and a week has passed since I moved to the bay area to be with my mom. Being in the bay area is a daily reminder why I am here in the first place. I initially came here to be with my mother and to take care of her...and now she is gone. I miss my mom so much and there's nothing I can do about it except pray to God that He would allow me to ( Read more... )