hiatus.
so first of all i'd like to say that this is, in no way, a goodbye. goodbyes are reserved for deaths and unhappy endings and separations, which i despise with a fiery passion. it's just a little sign on the ground that says i'll be back. it won't stay there forever. not at all.
so, first. an explanation. to all those that watch me or have friended me for my fics, thank you! i'll continue writing, but it won't be as frequent as that of what i did in the summer (which, come on, wasn't that much even.) um, sometime in the future i probably will, in fact, move all my stuff to a writing community or something of the sort. maybe not, mostly because i don't talk about my life here much, but when i do most of you are my friends anyway and i love you all for putting up with me. and then there's those writing comms that i'm part of - well, those will most probably be updated. because i don't want to disappear just then.
and then, there are these wonderful people that i just don't know how to explain all my feelings to.
→ zoe; my precious pirate, xiongmao, unnie and dongsaeng all rolled into one. you know you're the first friend i ever had here? i remember waiting for your comments because they made my day. and then we started talking, and talking, and talking...and soon all my fics had twenty seven comments and they were just us. and though we don't talk much anymore - which is probably my fault, i blame myself for not being able to initiate conversations that easily - just know that you'll always be the best. i know that you'll do just fine in college because who wouldn't love you? you've got nothing to worry about. one day, if you come to beijing, i'll take you to visit the pandas, alright? ♥
→ karin; well jesus what i'd like to say about you. how great are you, huh? just this little bombshell of everything great. now, no matter what you say, yes your edits are great okay. you've got talent. you're this social little thing that i can't help but want to hug sometimes. and yeah, we used to talk a lot too - and we stopped. your tweets on tlist just make me smile. you're much older than you let on sometimes, you know that? sometimes i feel like you're twenty and sometimes you're thirteen. how do you do it. you've got all this great sense and this sense of humour and sometimes, karin, talking to you is addicting. and i really love you for that. good luck to you, bb, and i hope you're happy all the time. don't stop smiling. ♥
→ kori; oh well - i can spazz about you forever. remember when, rui unnie? we'd comment and we were strangers. and i never thought i could be as close to someone as i am with you. did you forget those kori letters? well don't forget them, alright? because they're all in writing. because they're - y'know - just...yeah. i don't think i could survive without talking to you for long. you just...everything, sort of. we agree on so many things, and some ways, you're just my role model. you showed me so many things - maybe you didn't know it - and it made me a better person, and i will always thank you for that. and love you for it too. hope the military doesn't kick your ass too often ;-; and if you can, sort of imagine someone hugging you from across the ocean. because i am. ♥
→ julie; i just...julie. do you know how happy i am to see your name sometimes? it's crazy. i don't know what it is about you - but i'm glad that we starting talking. i'm so glad. and i'm sorry if i hurt you. and i'm so thankful to you, because - well, i dunno. the julie rainbow just really brightened up my day sometimes. i'd get used to seeing your caps lock running down my tlist or your fangirling or your general julie-ness i know i'm going to miss it when you're gone. you're such an amazing person and you mean so much to me. you're like my sister. i hope that you're happy, where ever you are, whatever you're doing. there's a h9 account waiting to be screamo'd with your name. summerstorm is always following a step behind. ♥
→ emily; emily. i never really call you emily, do i? my precious little si min, my fourth sister. do you know wonderful you are, inside and out? i'm so glad i wrote hanchul that day. i don't know how lucky i am to meet you. and, god, do i wish i could meet you. i would pinch your cheeks, i bet, and then i would coo over you. because you're just - precious. and so smart, so social, so cute. you've got a great personality and you never fail to make me laugh (in fact you never fail to make me fail too). sometimes i feel like we don't even need words to communicate. it's just..y'know. special that way. and whatever you need, love, i'm always there. just a message away. ♥
→ claire; whoa. the dictator. to be honest, i was scared of talking to you. you just seemed so nice, sweet, down to earth and just all around spasmodic. and i didn't know how to approach you? and so i was really shocked when you commented on my fic. and lo and behold, you were friends with emily! (social little bugger, isn't she? c;) but really, i loved talking with you. i think i sort of admired you from afar. you say you're not a good writer, but dear, it's not about being a good writer. it's about you, and your feeling through your words, and i liked you because everything about you was always sincere. and i think that's why other people like you too. and though i wish we could've become a little closer, i still consider you a close friend, and claire's just all-over-the-place tweets coupled with claire's kindness with never fail to make me smile. good luck to you, bb, and your studies. :'D ♥
→ sd; you, miss. shandai. with the mixed blood and one-hundred percent awesome intergrated in her very being. i've known you since you were small, just ten, y'know? with your mixed up chinese and my mixed up english, but we somehow understood each other without the need for communication. you are a special girl, inside and outside. life has been tough on you, which i wish it wasn't, and i'd do anything for you. you sweet little thing, who else is that cute and evil to her elders, huh? nah. you look like a tough bugger from the outside but inside, there's heart of gold. and you just hold in there, sweetheart. you're so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. you're amazing. keep going at it. ♥
→ rika; well, jiejie. we haven't been talking for long, and i know that sometimes we miss each other entirely. but you always understand me, for some reason. and though at first i thought you were a little unapproachable, it seems like you're the first person i go to nowadays. no one can replace you. and though you're the oldest jiejie, you'll always be the one closest. if only i could've seen you. that would've been great. and then past all our jokes and games and crackfics, i'd like to say that talking to you was great. you're so real and earnest and funny, jiejie. don't stop ever. ♥
→ miha; i haven't talked to you long, but i'm sure that if i did, we'd still find a lot of things in common. it's just like it, you know? i want to get to know miha better. (and no you are not my favourite dongsaeng sniff the amount of times you make fun of me otl) ((okay maybe you sort of going to be are favourite? did that make sense? if it didn't then that was the point)). if i could poke you, i would. you with your sarcastic self. jesus. but no, really. good luck, bb, in everything. ♥
→ maria; well, i haven't talk to you much either, though i wish i could have ;-; who else will spazz about ed and al and fma with me? who else will cry over kyuhae with me? who else will spazz with me like we're five year olds and yell and donghae for being such a perfect asshole? you have school and life and your drawing (which are wonderful okay) to think about, and i don't want to burden you too much. but yeah. you're just sort of wonderful. hwaiting. ;-; ♥
→ youree; i've actually known you for a long time, but it seems like we never get to talk? and i never got to say that everything was cool between us. i've always thought that you were the cutest little bird ever, and that your happiness and randomness was infectious. i wish we could've talked more. i really wish we could have. i would like to get to know you better, and it's just my fault i never got to have a proper conversation with such a great person. so i'll do it one day, yeah? c: i hope that this year is good for you, bb~! :D ♥
like i've told other people, it's not a goodbye. i'll still lurk around, post fics once in a while, update, rant about life in general. it just won't be that often, sadly. but, you know.
see you guys later! ♥♥♥