I'm very annoyed right now. Ok yes I miss my boyfriend tons but his leave might be the end of March, which granted I'd love to see him then but seriously that's so soon which means his next time home after that would be like nine months and that is absoutly annoying. We were really hoping he could come home in July so he's be home for my brothers ( Read more... )

I wish I wasn't so insecure. I wish I could accpect that I have a good thing and leave it at that instead of searching for reasons it is wrong. I wish I didn't get jealous. I wish I could tell boys that call all the time to stop and I have a boyfriend. I wish Sam didn't break my heart and make it so that I never want to love someone again. I ( Read more... )

Know what I find strange that for the past year or so I ended every conversation with Jon with an I love you and now that we're dating I can't say the L-word...it's amazing how it means something compltely different now. The only person I've ever loved is Sam and that didn't really go over so well so I'm really not ready to feel an emotion that ( Read more... )

Wow...so much has been going on since I got back to school. It's nice to be back and into routine again. I'm not feeling very well but I was even worse yesterday. Training has been keeping me very busy. I don't really mind it at all to be honest. I got my bulletin boards done tonite...Audree and I worked on stuff and watched Wedding Crashers ( Read more... )

Wow...I've had like a never ending headache for the past week :-(. Which I'm really going to blame on lack of sleep. Mom, Annie, and I drove to Pennsylvania because my parents are giving TJ and Annie the Volvo so they are driving all the way to Florida and my mom's flying back. But anyway that meant there were four of us in the townhouse the ( Read more... )

The Year 2005 ( Read more... )

I just got off the phone with Jon. Yeah I miss him a lot. But he's worth the wait. I really feel like no one thinks I can do the whole having a boyfriend that isn't around, but I can just wait and see. Just because since I broke up with Sam I've liked someone new every other day doesn't mean anything lol...I needed some time to figure out what ( Read more... )

Jon just left :-(. I'm not going to be able to sleep for awhile...I held it together while he was here and I friggen lost it as soon as he was out. I try really hard to be strong and not get too upset. I've been making jokes the whole time he was home about how I can't wait for him to leave...because that's how I handle things. So looks as ( Read more... )

I have a million thoughts running through my head. This couldn't be more confusing and the whole pretending every thing is the same is even harder. Yet I know myself and I know there are certain things I couldn't handle no matter how much I cared about a person so it's better to recongize that before anyone gets hurt but lately I think it may be ( Read more... )

Wow...that was the last thing I ever expected to happen. I'm really glad it did though. I just don't want to get let down again.