Comments | sunako_o: someday we'll know why I wasn't made for you

sunako_o

someday we'll know why I wasn't made for you

Sep 12, 2010 17:52

I feel like writing here now 'cause I feel like unloading my frustration a bit ( Read more... )

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flot_kusanagi October 4 2010, 14:11:53 UTC

quite frustrating.. maybe I got what you said.
It's like what I used to say: don't wanna get hurt, so I don't do a thing but at the end I feel bad anyway. At least if I tried to do something I would be hurt with a reason and not only 'cause I did nothing to help myself.
Remember when we were at the msn and you said we should try to do things and then tell each other to see how it goes? Well, I hesitated.. but then I tried, and you know what? It makes me nervous, anxious, sometimes even pissed off (when it's like "oh, I should have done it different" but you realize it a bit late, always.).. everything mixed up, but at least when something different happens because of my different action I feel kinda happy.. or silly, idk. xD ( ... )

sunako_o October 7 2010, 23:02:37 UTC

Yeah, perhaps being hurt having tried is less frustrating then feeling the same way for not having tried, but, let me tell you, it hurts just the same. After I wrote the post I debated with myself to the point of exhaustion and I decided to do something. And I did. Well, something quite tiny, but I did do something, and I barely got a response. It depressed me to no end, you can't imagine. Or perhaps you can... It was a silly thing, I sent an e-mail trying to start a conversation. All I got was a short reply, straight to the point, addressing the message's subject, and that was it. Now I feel silly, a bit depressed, a lot confused but also a bit content 'cause I did something, as tiny as it was, but I just didn't sat around expecting fate decide it was done making me suffer ( ... )

flot_kusanagi March 3 2011, 13:48:42 UTC

Oh my, the layout changed! Can I expect to hear from you soon?^^
I kinda disappeared a bit, but it's vacations fault. Hope things have changed since our last chat.. and changed for good, of course!
Take care =)
see ya!

sunako_o March 6 2011, 01:52:57 UTC

Hi there! Long time, no see! I tried to access your blog in Portuguese and got an error. Did you move ( ... )

sunako_o March 27 2011, 01:59:37 UTC

Oh, Flot... Let me just update you a tiny wee bit: I got the courage and did something. The response was practically non-existent. Again ( ... )

Singing to the choir.... peregrinity March 11 2011, 21:42:08 UTC

I know you said this back in September, but this:

I'm tired of having the things my way only in my head.

So, so SO resonated with me. I've been feeling that way for quite a long time.

I hope you don't mind I added you as a friend. You seem rather awesome, and we're both Sim Hospital fan/players.

Cheers!