Journey's End
So seriously? Not fair to show JE while I'm all hormonal and stuff. This is only the second time I've viewed the entire episode and it was SO MUCH WORSE. :P I cried a bit, at the end, the first time, but this was just....not fair.
I started crying when they towed the Earth home, for heaven's sake, just because I knew what was coming next! It was just bad, because these past few weeks have given me time to think on it and come to terms with how I really feel about all the character's and their endings, which made it all the worse when I had to watch Donna again. It's just.....god, her desperation to stay with the Doctor and how she just keeps saying "No". It's gutting. There's no other word for it. And I'm still so torn on the whole Blue!Doctor and Brown!Doctor. I fluctuate between happy for Rose, to sad for Rose, to sad for Brown, to really freaking pissed off at Brown, and in general, Blue!Ten just makes me want to cuddle him. *shrugs* What, like three, four weeks, and I still haven't decided how to feel. And usually fic helps me (no joke, I had so many issues with GitF before I read some really excellent fic, I think exploring Rose's POV on Reinette, that wasn't all jealous and bitchy, before I could finally come to terms and recognize it for the fantastic episode it is) but now fic just confuses me more......there's so many different interpretations of what everyone's life will be like now.
Sigh......Damn sci-fi. Had me crying into a tissue like a little girl. And I thought I'd be ok, because there was a commercial break in between Bad Wolf Bay and Donna, so it gave me a little time to compose myself. Yeah, didn't help at all. The second she comes onscreen I just gave this huge shuddering sigh and started crying again. It was awful.
God, Donna got a crap ending. That just....sucked. Donna needs to come back, like NOW. She was the awesomest companion ever (maybe MAYBE better than Rose.....I'm not sure where I stand on that yet. Perhaps they're tied, because I think that it would break my heart to admit that I loved a companion more than Rose :P) and she was SO RIGHT for Ten and....now she'll never know how awesome she truly was. She'll just think that she's a good for nothing temp from Chiswick. And she's so much more......*sighs*