Comments | sunkistboy: Living in the shadow.

sunkistboy

Living in the shadow.

Oct 25, 2003 12:56

I'm back in Montreal for a week. It's going to be a tough one though. I think I never had this much studying to do in my entire life. I'm already bored and I just got started. I have so many people to see this week, but I can't allow myself to get behind in my work. It's going to suck ( Read more... )

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ex_hardkore October 25 2003, 11:33:33 UTC

heh i could have wrote this entry, ive been feeling the EXACT same way lately. i figured it was just a phase like my other phases. so i sit here and do things that with give me a temporary high i.e piercing my nose, and finally finding and watching the movies ive been wanting to view for quite some time. but deep down i feel the same. nothings changed the only difference is that your older and all you have left waiting for you is loneliness.

-licks- it will get better for you, i promise.

sunkistboy October 27 2003, 10:14:44 UTC

I hope you're right, Wilus. Thanks for the comment, though. I promise it'll get better for you too. We just need to hang in there and try to stay (or become) optimistic, if that's possible.

brytheway October 25 2003, 14:27:05 UTC

louis,

you took the words out of my mouth! if you ready my recent entries, you'll know that i've been experiencing the same things. ironic isn't it!?! if not, weird. is it the weather?!?

in any event, only time will tell and make our worries and proccupations go away (i hope)...

i know you're busy, but if you have time to waste (if ever you`re extremely bored), we should hang out!

take care!
bry :)

sunkistboy October 27 2003, 10:18:17 UTC

Hey Bryan!

I'm sorry if I was rude on MSN the other day (yesterday, I guess). I was not very talkative and kinda down.

I hope you get better, find back your motivation and go back to enjoying life like you should be.

Take care, buddy.

thanks... brytheway October 27 2003, 10:22:15 UTC

...but there's no need for an apology.

i didn't find you rude at all. i was sorta down that day as well. under the weather i suppose...

sunkistboy October 27 2003, 10:30:35 UTC

That damn rain is going to get us all...

*hugs*

mikeybelcher October 25 2003, 20:11:41 UTC

I have been feeling the same way. I keep getting these bursts of happiness, as if I may actually have found the right path. But then reality smacks me in the face and reminds me just how stupid and naive I am. I am not who I want to be. I am not even who I think I am. I am reminded every day and in every way that I am a useless person.

It is weird though...because although you say the same things about yourself I would never in a million years think that you aren't the truly amazing, wonderful, incredible human being I have had the chance to know. You do something to me that I can't describe. I haven't even seen you in what seems like forever, but when I read something you write it seems like it was yesterday. You have an aura about you - an essence - that simply can't be destroyed. You are beautiful and always will be. I hate that you can't see that. But I hope one day someone shows you that it is true. That you are everything you should be...and so much more.

sunkistboy October 27 2003, 10:29:23 UTC

And everytime you write something, tears come to my eyes, because you always say the most beautiful things about me. The most awesome aspect of it is that I know you truly think them. Coming from you, it means a hell lot to me. Remember that e-mail I wrote you? Well, I still think about you in the same way, and getting these compliments makes me damn happy and makes me think that you might be right. I just need to discover that essence of mine. I doubt I'll ever find it, but you make me realize that it exists and that maybe I am able to bring something positive to this crazy fucked up world we live in, without even noticing it. I should use your wisdom more often. You are a bright fellow, Mikey, I hope you know that. Intelligent, and even more so emotionnally intelligent. That is a gift that you share with people that surround you. You are one of the most amazing person I ever had the chance to meet. Thank you. Hope you find pure happiness, I know you deserve it.

mikeybelcher October 27 2003, 20:03:13 UTC

And coming from YOU, those are the most amazing compliments I could ever hear. I hope we both find what we are looking for.

Until then, I am always here if you need me. And even if you don't need me, I still hope we cross paths again in our lifetime. I would be honored to always have you as my friend.