I am jealous.
Nonsense that's going through my mind right now cos depression is back. Feel free to ignore, I just need to write it down.
I am jealous of my best friends A and B who've got an 1,....(A) graduation whereas I only got a 2,5 (between B & C).
I am jealous of my best friends A, B, C, D & E who go to university/were accepted whereas I only get an apprenticeship.
I am jealous of my friend E who's a better musician than I am.
I am jealous of my best friend A because she's prettier than me, because men are really fond of her and because she's a
great personality whereas I am not.
I am jealous of my best friend B because she's an successful artist, makes beautiful& brilliant photos and is in a music video
I am jealous of every Youtube editor that makes better videos than me.
I am jealous of every fanfiction writer that writes better stories than me.
I am jealous of every person that speaks English better than me.
I am jealous of all my friends who've got a car and a driving license.
I am jealous of every girl of my age that's in a working relationship.
I am jealous of every family that lives in a happy household and has got enough money not to worry
about losing 5 €.
I am jealous of everyone who's smarter than me.
I am jealous of my best friend C who's got her own apartment and is well known and loved by many people.
I am jealous of my mother who's so strong and hardworking, no matter how little money she earns and what she's
been through in her life.
I am jealous of every person that hasn't got such silly selfesteem problems as I have.
I am jealous of every person that can sleep through the night.
I am jealous of every person that is active and does sports.
I am jealous of every person that has achieved something in his/her life whereas I have not.
I am jealous of every person that is better than me.
I am very very proud that I know my best friends A,B, C, D & E and their incredible achievements so far.
I am very happy that they're still talking to me.
Having brilliant, artistic, clever & pretty friends makes me feel lucky and proud but at the same time it breaks every
inch of my heart and makes me feel ashamed of myself and my nonexistent achievements & abilities.
I'm ashamed of myself because I don't have any sort of strength, persistence, discipline to live up to my talent
and evolve. I'll always be stuck in this state. Unhappy because of all the things I am not and at the same time
never evolving into something better, something I could be because I am too lazy, stubborn and too average
to be one of all those brilliant and successful people I know. I have to accept that I ain't and never will be as special as them.
I am jealous of my best friends A and B who've got an 1,....(A) graduation whereas I only got a 2,5 (between B & C).
I am jealous of my best friends A, B, C, D & E who go to university/were accepted whereas I only get an apprenticeship.
I am jealous of my friend E who's a better musician than I am.
I am jealous of my best friend A because she's prettier than me, because men are really fond of her and because she's a
great personality whereas I am not.
I am jealous of my best friend B because she's an successful artist, makes beautiful& brilliant photos and is in a music video
Click to viewI am jealous of every Youtube editor that makes better videos than me.
I am jealous of every fanfiction writer that writes better stories than me.
I am jealous of every person that speaks English better than me.
I am jealous of all my friends who've got a car and a driving license.
I am jealous of every girl of my age that's in a working relationship.
I am jealous of every family that lives in a happy household and has got enough money not to worry
about losing 5 €.
I am jealous of everyone who's smarter than me.
I am jealous of my best friend C who's got her own apartment and is well known and loved by many people.
I am jealous of my mother who's so strong and hardworking, no matter how little money she earns and what she's
been through in her life.
I am jealous of every person that hasn't got such silly selfesteem problems as I have.
I am jealous of every person that can sleep through the night.
I am jealous of every person that is active and does sports.
I am jealous of every person that has achieved something in his/her life whereas I have not.
I am jealous of every person that is better than me.
I am very very proud that I know my best friends A,B, C, D & E and their incredible achievements so far.
I am very happy that they're still talking to me.
Having brilliant, artistic, clever & pretty friends makes me feel lucky and proud but at the same time it breaks every
inch of my heart and makes me feel ashamed of myself and my nonexistent achievements & abilities.
I'm ashamed of myself because I don't have any sort of strength, persistence, discipline to live up to my talent
and evolve. I'll always be stuck in this state. Unhappy because of all the things I am not and at the same time
never evolving into something better, something I could be because I am too lazy, stubborn and too average
to be one of all those brilliant and successful people I know. I have to accept that I ain't and never will be as special as them.