I could use a little help.
God this is pathetic. Asking for help on a bloody website.
Depression is getting so terrible again. I know the reasons though. I stopped taking my sleeping pills and now my
sleep-wake rhythm is fucked up all over again. I'm crying every night, and the down episodes are accumulating again.
Here's my dilemma though:
I've got Alopecia areata. That's when you're losing hair. It started when I was three years old, it was gone after a month but
in 2009 it returned and wouldn't stop. I've been losing hair for 2 years now and it's horrible. I look like someone shaved
parts of the back of my head, like a chicken loosing it's feathers. Once one spot's got growing hair again, I find a new spot.
All my hair above my ears is missing. I mean you can't see it because the top hair covers it, but whenever I bow down or the
wind blows, everyone can see it. And I feel so ashamed of myself although I know it's not my fault. I'm a 19 year old girl and
I want to look pretty and by pretty I mean all I'm asking is to have all of my hair. Everytime I was sitting in school and there were
people sitting behind me I felt like they were stairing at me, maybe even laughing at me. You know what's worst about it?
I've been to so many doctors, I've taken so many pills and unguents, I even had about 20 injections right into the skin
of my head but nothing works. They don't even know what's causing it and they can't explain it. All the pain and psychoterror
but it's still there.
And I don't know what I'm doing wrong or what am I supposed to eat and what shampoo I ought to use and what to do and
what not but everything I do, my hair just won't come back.
This makes me so very very sad. I know I'm not right in my head, at least I want to look normal.
So I need a little advice from strangers, since doctor's can't help me, my friends don't care and my mum is so tired of me.
Should I take my pills again, knowing I could sleep and be awake and not tired and weak and sick anymore but this would
also mean I might lose more hair (although there's nothing written about hair loss on the package insert) or should I continue
not taking pills and let my depression get worse and worse all over again. Hair or sleep? What would you choose?
Sorry for spamming you with this terrible text, but I need to write it down, I need someone to listen to me and I know it's
pathetic to ask the internet for help but that's what depression does to you.
So if you've read this text to the end but won't answer, it's still ok. Thank you for reading this anyway.
Depression is getting so terrible again. I know the reasons though. I stopped taking my sleeping pills and now my
sleep-wake rhythm is fucked up all over again. I'm crying every night, and the down episodes are accumulating again.
Here's my dilemma though:
I've got Alopecia areata. That's when you're losing hair. It started when I was three years old, it was gone after a month but
in 2009 it returned and wouldn't stop. I've been losing hair for 2 years now and it's horrible. I look like someone shaved
parts of the back of my head, like a chicken loosing it's feathers. Once one spot's got growing hair again, I find a new spot.
All my hair above my ears is missing. I mean you can't see it because the top hair covers it, but whenever I bow down or the
wind blows, everyone can see it. And I feel so ashamed of myself although I know it's not my fault. I'm a 19 year old girl and
I want to look pretty and by pretty I mean all I'm asking is to have all of my hair. Everytime I was sitting in school and there were
people sitting behind me I felt like they were stairing at me, maybe even laughing at me. You know what's worst about it?
I've been to so many doctors, I've taken so many pills and unguents, I even had about 20 injections right into the skin
of my head but nothing works. They don't even know what's causing it and they can't explain it. All the pain and psychoterror
but it's still there.
And I don't know what I'm doing wrong or what am I supposed to eat and what shampoo I ought to use and what to do and
what not but everything I do, my hair just won't come back.
This makes me so very very sad. I know I'm not right in my head, at least I want to look normal.
So I need a little advice from strangers, since doctor's can't help me, my friends don't care and my mum is so tired of me.
Should I take my pills again, knowing I could sleep and be awake and not tired and weak and sick anymore but this would
also mean I might lose more hair (although there's nothing written about hair loss on the package insert) or should I continue
not taking pills and let my depression get worse and worse all over again. Hair or sleep? What would you choose?
Sorry for spamming you with this terrible text, but I need to write it down, I need someone to listen to me and I know it's
pathetic to ask the internet for help but that's what depression does to you.
So if you've read this text to the end but won't answer, it's still ok. Thank you for reading this anyway.