Vid:Tick Tock Clock [I See Polaroid Faces]
Characters: me! Lol!
Song: "Stillness" - Peccatum
Warnings: flashy, disturbing, dark
Random Babble Mode: Somehow I felt like making a video about myself, using movie footage.
Touchy touchy.
Explanation:
ll, this is me. Lol :D Psychoanalysis like. Because I'm still one hell of a weirdo.
Depression's almost gone but the fear isn't. And lemme tell you, it's driving me insane sometimes.
This video is nothing compared to what my mind comes up with sometimes :D
I've been depressive for over 5 years now.
I've been to a clinic for over a month.
It was horrible in there.
Yes, I've cut myself. Result? Pretty long and obvious scars on my right arm and left leg, hurt like hell, didn't do any good.
(well ok it did but still, don't do that, it's rubbish.)
I can't sleep at night without having a panic attack (seeing freaky stuff from the horror movies in my room and so on)
I have to take pills every day and it sucks.
I got loads of injections in my head because of loosing hair on end
(blimey, it hurt like hell..I mean the injections. Must've been about 20)
I spent months crying my eyes out every night. (no reason)
Time and clocks is another thingy. Due to my panic attacks and fears I hardly sleep at night
(that's why I'm taking pills to make me tired) and sometimes I spent nights staring at clocks and watching how time is running out.
There's good days and bad days, symbolised by the colourful trees and the b&w.
I'm good now. Not healed, but good. Excercising everyday, fresh air, getting up...I'm ok.
(see the ending of my video. That's plain art & inspiration & peace)
Oh and btw: This is the singer of my all time favourite band Emperor
Song: "Stillness" - Peccatum
Warnings: flashy, disturbing, dark
Random Babble Mode: Somehow I felt like making a video about myself, using movie footage.
Touchy touchy.
Click to viewExplanation:
ll, this is me. Lol :D Psychoanalysis like. Because I'm still one hell of a weirdo.
Depression's almost gone but the fear isn't. And lemme tell you, it's driving me insane sometimes.
This video is nothing compared to what my mind comes up with sometimes :D
I've been depressive for over 5 years now.
I've been to a clinic for over a month.
It was horrible in there.
Yes, I've cut myself. Result? Pretty long and obvious scars on my right arm and left leg, hurt like hell, didn't do any good.
(well ok it did but still, don't do that, it's rubbish.)
I can't sleep at night without having a panic attack (seeing freaky stuff from the horror movies in my room and so on)
I have to take pills every day and it sucks.
I got loads of injections in my head because of loosing hair on end
(blimey, it hurt like hell..I mean the injections. Must've been about 20)
I spent months crying my eyes out every night. (no reason)
Time and clocks is another thingy. Due to my panic attacks and fears I hardly sleep at night
(that's why I'm taking pills to make me tired) and sometimes I spent nights staring at clocks and watching how time is running out.
There's good days and bad days, symbolised by the colourful trees and the b&w.
I'm good now. Not healed, but good. Excercising everyday, fresh air, getting up...I'm ok.
(see the ending of my video. That's plain art & inspiration & peace)
Oh and btw: This is the singer of my all time favourite band Emperor