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sunny_jay

Zombies are back at Monroeville Mall

Oct 04, 2007 12:12

I apologize. My journal has strongly been lacking any form of writing whatsoever except in the form of sports predictions and outcomes which barely even pass for sensical phrases of the English language.

I seem to be mentally pre-disposed as of late. I just feel as though I am in an extreme brain fog. Thick fog. So thick I can't see my hand ( Read more... )

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johnmill79 October 4 2007, 22:26:36 UTC

Yeah, I'm trying to stop wishing my life away as well, although there seems to be nothing I can do about the speed of time! I think that's why I need to find something I actually enjoy doing, and soon. I've been out of sync for too long.

sunny_jay October 5 2007, 12:08:08 UTC

I think a lot of the "wishing away" can be chalked up to not feeling like I am fulfilling my potential in life. I'm not sure I will ever be completely happy with anything I do, and that's a scary thought.

Ok -- getting way too deep.

notbamf October 5 2007, 02:00:10 UTC

Wow. I feel really bad to read this. It is good that you recognize the good things: your family and friends and b/f. That's the stuff you need to focus on, not the stuff that's causing you the anguish. Easier said than done, I know, but it's all you can do.

sunny_jay October 5 2007, 12:06:06 UTC

I'm sorry to make you sad.

I do focus on the good things -- but I still just have this drained, worn out feeling. Usually I know how to fix how I feel, but with this, I just can't figure out the cause so how am I to find a solution?

dasbooterror October 5 2007, 14:04:15 UTC

Ironically, I feel much the same way (Most of this is my clinical depression acting up) But I can relate completely to the feeling. It feels like your behind a pane of smoked glass looking out at the world. Things that used to make you dont.

I cant say i get those full body aches. I just feel hollow. Its miserable.

But I will tell you this much, It does get better, You just gotta hang in there. Try some new things, maybe adjust your sleeping routine. I know when I'm not getting enough sleep this flares up quickly. Also as crazy as it sounds you might not be getting enough of various vitamins. I know when im not taking my B suppliments and multivitamins, My life is a smokey blur. draggy, tired, etc.

Take my solutions with a large grain of salt, Just because it works like magic for me doesnt mean it will be a cure-all for you. If you ever want to talk about this let me know.

sunny_jay October 5 2007, 14:08:39 UTC

Thanks so much for your advice, encouragement, and support. This is something I have been dealing with since I was a teenager -- teenage angst never resolved. HA. I have a lot of underlying problems, but I try to never use those as excuses. If I begin to use them as excuses, they will control my life.

I may have to try the vitamin train again. I am really bad at taking pills. I find I can't do it consistently (except for the ones I HAVE to take on a daily basis).

Anyways, thanks again for your help :)

dasbooterror October 5 2007, 14:27:33 UTC

Its never a problem. I like to talk to people and help (Its part of the reason I took up firefighting. The other half is I wanted to ride in firetrucks :D )

As for the pills, as seriously silly as it will sound, I take Flinstone vitamins + a B supliment. As comical as it is, the whole seeing the bottle and having a small laugh in the morning about it, is just what it takes to remind me to take them