i'm completely numb.

[sunnybeachbum]

so out of the blue yesterday travis calls me at 630pm to tell me that he can't be in this relationship anymore. that he realized i deserved more than just a weekend boyfriend and right now he can't give me anything more than that...so in his mind he's determined that it's not going to work out and he doesn't want to be with me hoping things will

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Christine

[sunnybeachbum]

i know all of this. nicole has been drilling it into my head since yesterday. and i know i'll be ok, eventually. it just hurts like hell right now.

and you and nicole. she's been telling me to eat all day too. i didn't have dinner last night, and barely got down anything for breakfast, but i have consumed a banana, coffee and oj, oh yeah and my vitamins and bc pill. that's all gotta count for something!

thank you. i'm sure i'll be calling you too. times like these are when friends matter the most. and yes, i'm going to sit down and evaluate everything. i'll have been at KPMG for 5 years next June. I plan to try and stay here till then, but i might try to move out of my apartment into something cheaper, or move home for a bit. then i think i'm going to look to transfer somewhere else. i need to move, i need to be somewhere else, i need a new life.