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Apr 28, 2011 22:41

Therapy, it has come to my attention, I'd for suckers. Therapy is basically asking you to make peace with the fact that you won't get what you were supposed to. It is basically teaching you how to be ok with comprising everything you wanted or believed in. And I say no. This doesn't appeal to me anymore.

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anonymous May 1 2011, 09:36:48 UTC

Maybe the purpose of therapy is to teach you that it's not necessarily your fault. Seems to me that you carry almost all of the guilt, and of course you're never going to be happy if you don't allow yourself to be. And no one is going to want to be with you because you don't value yourself as someone who should be wanted.
The way you see yourself is the majority of who you are. If you want to be able to fulfill anything remotely resembling your purpose, you have to allow yourself to exist in peace instead of constant blame. Maybe instead of defining yourself by evan, or even more by fred, you should start defining yourself by who and what you are. You always seem to want to find a guy whose shadow you can live in - maybe it's time to realize that's a cold and dark way to existence.

You talk about religion, but I'm pretty sure God doesn't want his children living in self imposed misery.

sunrays118 May 2 2011, 01:17:45 UTC

So. Thank you for taking the time to read and respond to my journal- means a lot. I will say I hate anonymous comments. I think we safetly rule an old friend of mine named Daniel though lol he would want me to focus on admitting more of my guilt anyhow. I do hear what your saying but here's the thing.

1. I do think God wants me to be miserable iris indifferent. He Gave me the most amazing chance ever and I messed it up. God thinks I'm stupid and I should stop wasting His time.

2. I don't mind living in someone else's shadow. It's where I want to be. We all are here to live in Gods shadow right? So how isn't it natural for me tolive in the shadow of the man I love. I do love him. I should silently support him. It's only right.

3. Lastly, I don't deserve to be fulfilled. That comes from being in love. Being with your love. I just. It's what's right. I. Theres more to say but I won't waste your time.

Don't suppose you'd introduce yourself?

anonymous May 3 2011, 06:39:06 UTC

1) Don't claim to know god's motivations. God works in mysterious ways and as a general rule of thumb the mortals don't generally get clued into the plan. IF you're stupid (which I don't think you are, perhaps just stubborn) you're the way he made you. Every thing you do, experience, and indeed suffer, is part of preparation for whatever the next step is.I'm not going to say I've had a perfect life or made perfect decisions (far from it) but looking back at where I am now (which isn't a bad place) I can actually see how each of those things got me to where I am now, and I wouldn't be where or who I am now without both the good and bad experiences/decisions ( ... )

sunrays118 May 5 2011, 07:26:10 UTC

sorry in advance:

i dontknow why people feel the need to test me but ok.

the thing is if you hoenstly beleived any of what you were syaing-this post wouldnt look like this.

youwouldnt do it anonymously. thats a cheap way out. and well youre an athiest so clearly you dont think God works that way and lastly, and again im sorry, if your way worked.... you woldnt be single.

Skills mean you are courageous! anonymous May 4 2011, 05:16:29 UTC

I know you hate anonymous comments, but I felt the need to respond after reading.

How does being skillful mean you are weak? Wouldn't the opposite be true? I find it courageous when people are skillful, even if it is difficult at times. A lot of people are raised in an environment that does not teach the necessary skills, and if you are taught a better way to do something, wouldn't you want to put that to use?

Even if therapy is for those without direction, what's the harm in getting help? Therapy can take time. You can't ever give up in getting the life you want and deserve. It sounds like you have been hurt in the past by the person who broke up with you (I don't know the full story, just what I've read in your journal, so I am part guessing), don't you want to be able to live your life without that burden following you around? I know I would. It sounds like you are suffering.

Re: Skills mean you are courageous! sunrays118 May 5 2011, 07:27:31 UTC

read the above. if you eblieved what you were saying. you woudlnt be saying it in hiding.

Re: Skills mean you are courageous! anonymous May 7 2011, 02:37:43 UTC

If you knew who I was you'd be pretty mad. That's why I didn't put my name, not because I don't believe what I'm saying. If I didn't believe my post, why would I even bother!

Re: Skills mean you are courageous! sunrays118 May 7 2011, 04:00:07 UTC

what does that even mean?

sunrays118 May 7 2011, 04:54:58 UTC

i wish i had some other way of doing this. for both of you but here. if you think this way-stand up to it. email me and i will give you my phone number, you may call me and actually talk to me about this ( ... )