Well, I'm starting to read every day and meditate. Yesterday was a great kick off. I read my book and I started to realize that a lot of how I am is due to my past but I have the power to change. Just because this happened to me, doesn't mean I am chained down to be powerless over my personality and my actions. My past has just been an excuse for ( Read more... )

eeeeeeh chooie! Yes I knew this would come. The wonderful cold! Damn weather. I can hardly breathe. I've been sneezing and blowing my nose all day. Had a pounding headache this morning, but I toughened myself up and went to work. It was easy stuff. Just stuffed envelopes all day and then towards the end I got to put ties on the bundles. I got to be ( Read more... )

Well I was cleaning my room up yesterday. I started going through a box of stuff and I found some really old things. I had a good laugh from these decks of cards me and Erica wrote fortunes on when we were like 12. We were so funny and retarded. lol I found a bunch of things from my senior year. It was interesting seeing how I and other people ( Read more... )

I was going through some boxes of stuff at home. I found this poem in my Kindergarten memory book I wanted to share. Also in my next two posts will be poems I wrote that go along with what I'm going through now ( Read more... )

Happiness Left Behind ( Read more... )

"New Found Strength ( Read more... )

I moved back to my parents in Ellwood City yesterday. It was a bad day to have to move. It was raining most of the day and my pants got soaked from stepping all over them and leaning against the wet car. After getting everything packed up I picked Eric up and went to out to eat at the Pittsburgh Steakhouse. It was great seeing him again and just ( Read more... )

I talked to Eric last night and I feel so much better for having did so. I read a chapter of my book the other night that made me realize "If I care about this man, I can't just erase him from my life. I can't just leave him without trying to see if we can get our friendship back" I'd be forever hating myself. I told him how bad I felt for some of ( Read more... )

I'm facing such a difficult decision right now. I have a position starting tomorrow. It's in Gibsonia so I'm not sure if Ellwood or Pittsburgh is closer. It's only for a week. The temp agency was supposed to send me the directions but I haven't received them yet. I don't know if they got my e-mail right...She repeated it back to me on the phone ( Read more... )

Last night was great! I as I had mentioned before I went out bowling last night. I saw Bryan again and his buddy Matt. Right now I'm not sure what I'm thinking of him. He seems like a bit of a player, but at the same time really nice ( Read more... )