I get up a half hour every morning just to have more time to hate it here

[sunsmogseahorse]

What follows is a rant, a tirade, a temper tantrum. If you've been with me thus far, you are used to that. I've been holding back, but here we go again

Comments

[fogbear]

A good rant is a thing of beauty, and this is among the best I've read in a long time...if ever.

I was driven through New Haven once, by a grad school friend who had been a Yale undergrad. I thought it was as depressing as anywhere I'd been to that point, which included some of the most desolate areas of Philadelphia, Camden, and Trenton. I gather that things haven't improved since 1993.

I sincerely hope that you can escape as soon as possible.

[sunsmogseahorse]

Thank you for reading my screed.

It's quite astounding, isn't it? Things have improved somewhat because the crack epidemic has waned. But as a mentor of mine (who lives elsewhere) said to me, about the best thing you hear about New Haven is that it isn't as bad as it used to be.

[apparentparadox]

Maybe you just need to have a bunch of friends sign a contract stating that they will do an intervention if you're still there after a few more years -- that way even if the place does rot your brain so much that you can't see how bad it is, your friends will pull you out & once you start breathing real air again, you'll come to your senses.

[sunsmogseahorse]

Like Odysseus lashed to the mast... oh, wait.

[mikeybill]

Move honey - you hate it there, have forever, so move.
I know it's not that easy, but really, get out - you need to be in a space that works for you - and your mental and emotional health matter. Wish I could actually do something.
Hugs

[sunsmogseahorse]

You just did, petal :)

[oceanlux]

Perhaps the bike ride, even if it is with folks you don't like, might be good just for the exercise/fresh air aspect of it.....

Sorry to hear New Haven sucks....I've been there a few times, but always for a specific purpose, so I haven't seen the side you describe.

Hope you can get out soon....I know what it's like to live in a city you hate.

[pbehr]

I've just read "Gods of Money" by William Engdahl (from Amazon, couldn't find it anywhere else). It was mind blowing, the best book I've read in 10 years. It could be a bit of an antidote to the twits you have to work to avoid. It's very explanatory about a lot of things, including poverty in New Haven.

[sunsmogseahorse]

I will look this up! Now, I wish we had a good, independent bookseller in this town.