Im going to rehab tomorrow.
got my LAST high in tonight, & it doesnt even feel good.
IM REALLY EXCITED TO START FRESH
wish me luck you guys, buti dont need it cuz im ready freddy!

first and foremost i hve a massive headache ( Read more... )

went to work. half day. left half way into the half day. cheynne picked me up. cleaned and organized. bobby made us a very VERY lovely lunch of steak potatoes english muffins and some vegatable thing with the most amazing cheese ive eaten. with a bucket of champagne of course. she passed out, poor thing works so much. sooooo im just waiting for her ( Read more... )

as gay as it sounds, im so SO happy to be getting my blackberry back. oh how ive missed it. work is amazing as always, i get paid wednesday which will be a double paycheck. my tattoos almost done peeling its incredibly hard for me not to dig my nails into it and scratch the horrible itching away. so i have to pat it like a black girl & her weave. ( Read more... )

i called all my best friends ust now. none of them answered. nice

after much, and i mean much contemplating, i decided it was worth it to get out of my comfy position that i will never be able to obtain again, to smoke this cigarette. THE POWER OF ADDICTION OVERCOMES. ha just kidding.. i was terribly comfortable, although this stick of toabacco [and other non natural chemicals] have proved itself to be most ( Read more... )

working this job has made it so great for me. my mind is occupied everyday from 9 til 4 and although i catch myself having those "i worked so hard time to reward myself moments" i slowly let them pass and move on to the next day. if i have to sleep it off, i sleep it off. i read it off, talk it off, smoke it off etc, for unfortunately, giving into ( Read more... )

i know you guys dont think your fathers deserve your time or a phone call. and not to interfere with anyones personal oppinions but i felt the same way until i lost him. trust me your gonna wish you called.

ibinged, i realized, and i told my mother ( Read more... )

im scared but its almost fun.