[38] "I want you to stay forever." (Leeteuk, Kibum)
I've been doubting myself after the scandal. Should I stay in SuJu to be their leader, their hyung? Although it's not true but it's still because of me-
"Hyung, you okay? Don't worry anymore."
"Yeah I'm fine."
"I wanted to..."
"Yes?"
"Never mind."
I can't tell Leeteuk Hyung now. He's upset enough. But... I can't be in SJ anymore. I haven't been participating much in the activities, and complaints are coming up, and rumors too, that I shouldn't, and doesn't want to be in SJ. This is so troublesome. I'll have to wait.
*Next Day*
"Kibummie... Since it's only the two of us, I'll tell you, but keep it from the others."
"Hyung... You're scaring me..."
"Haha... I'm leaving...SJ..."
"What? Why? No, wait, we'll leave together. I don't feel comfortable in SJ anymore..."
"Kibummie ah..."
"..."
"I want you to stay forever."
"I want you to stay forever, I don't have to."
Hyung, I feel like crying. You can't leave. No, I'll make you stay.
"Remember Hyung, we promised to be 13 forever. 13 includes you. Live up to that promise we made. A scandal is fake, it isn't real. What's there to be scared of?"
I brroded over what Kibum said for a while. I uess it's true. I don't have to be affected by something that isn't true. Not to such a drastic measure, at least.
"...You're right Kibummie, I feel better. Okay, I won't leave. But if you were leaving, you had no right to ask me to stay, using the reason that we promised to be 13 forever."
"..."
"13, and 13 includes you Kibummie. I'm still living up to it, thanks to you, but then, what about you? Rumors on the net are as fake as scandals on the newspaper. Forget them Kibummie."
Was I wrong about myself? If this is the way my Hyung thinks of me, then I believe him. I know I really love my hyungs, I know I can't bear to leave SJ. So why did that rumor affect me? Why?
"Kibummie, you cannot be swayed by rumors, they don't affect you."
Hyung answered my question, I was swayed by the rumor. So, I do love SJ, and I can't bear to leave. 13 includes me, I'll stay. I leaped forward and hugged Hyung. As tears rolled down my cheeks, I felt that pressure that the rumors placed on me gone all of a sudden. At the same time, I felt by shirt getting wet. Hyung was crying too.
"I knew you'd stay. 13 forever?"
"Yes Hyung, 13 forever."
-fin-
was this better? no right?
it's suppossed to be touching, but i don't think anyone would end up smiling or crying...
it'll be like 'oh... so this is how it ends' o something, or maybe people will just close the page...
with another 98 o.o stories to go, i hope i improve.
"Hyung, you okay? Don't worry anymore."
"Yeah I'm fine."
"I wanted to..."
"Yes?"
"Never mind."
I can't tell Leeteuk Hyung now. He's upset enough. But... I can't be in SJ anymore. I haven't been participating much in the activities, and complaints are coming up, and rumors too, that I shouldn't, and doesn't want to be in SJ. This is so troublesome. I'll have to wait.
*Next Day*
"Kibummie... Since it's only the two of us, I'll tell you, but keep it from the others."
"Hyung... You're scaring me..."
"Haha... I'm leaving...SJ..."
"What? Why? No, wait, we'll leave together. I don't feel comfortable in SJ anymore..."
"Kibummie ah..."
"..."
"I want you to stay forever."
"I want you to stay forever, I don't have to."
Hyung, I feel like crying. You can't leave. No, I'll make you stay.
"Remember Hyung, we promised to be 13 forever. 13 includes you. Live up to that promise we made. A scandal is fake, it isn't real. What's there to be scared of?"
I brroded over what Kibum said for a while. I uess it's true. I don't have to be affected by something that isn't true. Not to such a drastic measure, at least.
"...You're right Kibummie, I feel better. Okay, I won't leave. But if you were leaving, you had no right to ask me to stay, using the reason that we promised to be 13 forever."
"..."
"13, and 13 includes you Kibummie. I'm still living up to it, thanks to you, but then, what about you? Rumors on the net are as fake as scandals on the newspaper. Forget them Kibummie."
Was I wrong about myself? If this is the way my Hyung thinks of me, then I believe him. I know I really love my hyungs, I know I can't bear to leave SJ. So why did that rumor affect me? Why?
"Kibummie, you cannot be swayed by rumors, they don't affect you."
Hyung answered my question, I was swayed by the rumor. So, I do love SJ, and I can't bear to leave. 13 includes me, I'll stay. I leaped forward and hugged Hyung. As tears rolled down my cheeks, I felt that pressure that the rumors placed on me gone all of a sudden. At the same time, I felt by shirt getting wet. Hyung was crying too.
"I knew you'd stay. 13 forever?"
"Yes Hyung, 13 forever."
-fin-
was this better? no right?
it's suppossed to be touching, but i don't think anyone would end up smiling or crying...
it'll be like 'oh... so this is how it ends' o something, or maybe people will just close the page...
with another 98 o.o stories to go, i hope i improve.