It sucks to be the one left behind

[superboyclex]

A very close friend of mine died recently and it's really getting to me. I keep having these dreams of her not being dead and I'm trying to warn her or sometimes say goodbye. It sucks. To make matters worse my car broke down on the way to her funeral so I ended up missing it. Now her mother won't talk to me. I can't reach her.

I would have seen

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[bitchygrrl]

*hugs* I'm really sorry for you, it's hard to lose somebody you love and care about. I know there is really nothing any of us can do but if you want to talk, I'm here.

[superboyclex]

Thanks for the support *hugs*

at least I can say her name and look at pictures of her now without breaking down. Like can be so unfair sometimes

ps
I promise to mail you. I'm finally getting around to all the internet stuff including LJ and email.

[bitchygrrl]

I know it must be so hard for you, you give everything to your friends. Life is terribly unfair sometimes, but try to remember that Michele would want you to be happy and still do all of the things you guys talked about doing.

PS. Whenever you have time, you've been going through a lot and I know this time of year is busy for you anyway.

[superboyclex]

Yeah Aaron says the same thing, but it's still hard. When I say her name I feel like she should be there.

We were saying that she was some place giving some one hell laughing her ass off or having the best party. That would be so like her lol

[quietus_regret]

You know she wouldn't like it if you stayed sad. Just keep thinking of her as she was, and she knew you loved her. There was'n question about that. You were there for her down to the last few days. Don't be hard on yourself. I also think that it was fate that you didn't make it to her funeral. You didn't need to see her like that.

*hugs you deeply* love you D

[superboyclex]

I guess you're right but it still sucks. I actually bame her mom in part for neglect. That woman never did give a shit! She new Michele was sick and did nothing. Michele had to call me up just to ask what to do cause she was ill.

I had even told her she could dye. It all just happened so fast. The girl was begging for help for gods sake!

[quietus_regret]

Of course it sucks, that's just the way of things but it always gets better, sometimes slowly.

See you were there for her 100%

I can't even begin to speak my mind about her mother. She should be ashamed. I would feel guilt beyond belief if I were her. I know I will pray that she knows what she lost.

D, remember you did everything you could.

[superboyclex]

believe me she knows. A million years to late but she knows. I think it hit her like a brick. When I first got her phone call she was in shock and then just sobbed. I feel sorry for her yet want to walk up to her and slap her. Even though she wasn't a good mother no one deserves to lose their daughter.

[so_severus]

oh my goodness :(

* hugs *

[superboyclex]

Hugs, I can never get enough of them when I feel this down, so thanks

[_angellily_]

Aww D!! That is horrible, you lost friend. I am fortunate to have never been through that so I can't image your pain.

Sometimes my mind gets jumbled with friends stories, but didn't you lose a friend in a car accident last year as well?

If there is anything I can do to help just let me know. HUGS, and remember to take care of yourself.

[superboyclex]

Yeah, he was run over while going to see his girlfriend at night.

Thanks for the support. You're always ready to help me and I appriciate that *hugs*

See, I can take care of others but taking care of myself is another matter...

[_angellily_]

See, I can take care of others but taking care of myself is another matter...

D!!!! That is what makes me worry.

[superboyclex]

I'm not dead yet so only worry a little *kidding*