terrible

[superchic515]

I am a terrible person. I'm stuck though. What do I do? I mean the more I spill what I really am feeling, the less it seems to matter or sound true I guess. I don't know if I want to be punished or if I just want to cry. I am so dumb sometimes. I mean I put all this effort into distance becuase I can't handle the heartache, and then when I

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[anonymous]

how bout this, instead of explaining me like you said i did sometime i'll explain you. you this ideal situation in your head where you'd love us to be friends where you want us to talk all the time and share all our secrets or whatever. and i'm cool with that i enjoyed when we were like that and when we talked all the time. but now you must face the reality that well thats not who we've been for thats about 2-3months, does this mean that i am no longer you friend, no. you must realize that just like an relationship (even more so) that one where the people don't see each other they need to talk alot and that takes alot of time. and you say that oh yes this is what you want you want us to be the bestest of friends. well thats great i'm all about that and i am willing (and i have) to put the time in and talk to you and chat to the wee hours of the morning. and you constantly say that yes oh yes this is what i want, and in your head you believe this. but what you forget is that oh yeah, i have this thing called a life where i go and hang