what the fuck is wrong with me? i dont even have the urge to play video games. thats how bad shes making me feel right now. i mean honestly does she want to throw away almost every night for the past week? i dont know even know what else to say here, to her, to myself! maybe if i just give her some time to cool off or something. i want to ( Read more... )

my incredibly good mood just sort of died. i really feel like a jerk. please forgive me.

wow i havent been in a better mood in a long long time.
thanksgiving went pretty well, but i think the week was even better. even though i had 43 hours at best buy. i do like being back at school though. i really cant think of much else to say.

btw i hate you for drawing on my face, i will have retribution.

first of all y the hell am i up this early on a day i really need to be ( Read more... )

for whatever reason it struck me now at ten of 3 in the morning to update my journal. i guess that happens when im in a contemplative mood. im doing awesome for my first quarter shooting for 3.8 or so. ive already registered for next quarter, comp sci 2, multivariable calculus, physics 1 (i was forced into this, i couldnt test out or anything), ( Read more... )

feel a lot better today. just finished a round of $5 buy in of texas holdem and practicly doubled my money. played a bit of guitar today. i think my picks up are bad. ill check em out tomorrow. just sort of in a good mood no reason really other then i guess feeling included. sometimes i just need to rant. i still think its true that we're all ( Read more... )

why does no one respond to my posts? in the past 4 posts, the posts that i have made since i got here to college, one person has made a comment (jeff). am i really that unlike, unloved, unwanted? if so i'm fine with that as the quiz said i dont need people, i'll get over it. but is that the case?

its kind of amazing how close these can be

i was right all along

i was reading entries, particularly my friends and my own and it dawns on me: "what the fuck, everyone is going emo with the exception of shamus who is trying to make something out of what hes got." the rest of us (i am also including myself in here) are like "blah blah blah poor me give me some fucking pity." well another thing dawned on me "get ( Read more... )